Helena

Ok, I know it's about his grandma, but I interpret it differently. I think it's about a girl who was suicidal and mentally ill. She kills herself, and this song is about the guy who loved her feeling angry and having to deal with the aftermath. He's pissed that she was so eager to die. He's says that everyone is far from her. I think this means both physically because she's dead, and mentally because she was so hard to understand. Now that she's gone I think her presence is still burning around them. He's saying that even in death she makes the lives of the people she knew difficult. The chorus basically reiterates the point. I think the blade part refers to her suicide. He doesn't say a blade, but "the" blade. Now he's holding on, but it's been hard on him. He's thinking about how in life she pushed him away and he wanted to leave sometimes, but it was better that he stayed. I also think at this point he's considering dying to be with her, but he knows that it's better for him to stay. Then he tells her goodbye. He remembers when she was at her worst and everything made her emotional and sad. Then she basically transferred her pain to everyone else when she killed herself. He knows they will meet again in death. Until then he has to pretend that he's over her even though he never really will be.