Lyric discussion by TheSamPrior 

Special Secret Sickness is alcoholism but I wouldn't say it was based around his mum, I'd say it was a girlfriend that he followed into drink (maybe Kathy from "this year"? he mentions drinking whiskey in that song when he was seventeen). Either way he begins to drink with this girlfriend and gets caught up in the general alcoholism lifestyle and the "let me down" bit is maybe a police intervention or something? That's what I'm thinking

@TheSamPrior To go by the WTF podcast interview, age 17 was the first blush of John's drug years, a path he was led down by a girlfriend. Alcoholism makes sense too, but this album is autobiographical, so its more likely the heroin etc that he said was part of their lives then.

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