All Apologies

What else should I be All apologies What else could I say Everyone is gay

(the public has made me up into a million images. I'm sorry I'm not good enough for any of them. There's nothing left to say, please have mercy, use empathy, be compassionate; in Utero everyone is sexless and the same, or gay, until the hormones kick in)

What else could I write I don't have the right What else should I be All apologies

(telling us once again he is not good enough as the projected image the public he felt oppressed him with, their hopes, dreams, etc. He is a man without illusions, or defenses. He knows his fragile, broken and flawed self cannot live up to the beliefs others have about him, such as genius, spokesman for a generation etc.).

In the sun In the sun I feel as one In the sun In the sun I'm married Buried

(the sun may represent death and rebirth, happiness, hope and the spiritual source of life. He feels at peace, or one, with this symbol because it represents simple creature happiness. But he also knows this is a wishful fantasy to return to the pre-anxious state of childhood/Eden, one that heroin could only fabricate for a little while, and the burden of the responsibility of commitment, marriage, fatherhood comes crashing like an avalanche)

I wish I was like you Easily amused Find my nest of salt Everything is my fault

(the "you" could be Courtney or could be as he sees his fans, unburdened by depression and sensitivity. "nest of salt" might mean something or it could just be a cool sounding phrase to sarcastically make fun of all the song analyzers out there. A person who believes everything is there fault is very depressed indeed. One of the hallmarks of severe major depression is intractable guilt).

I'll take all the blame Aqua sea foam shame Sunburn with freeze burn Choking on the ashes of her enemy

(my feeling is that this verse is more than just cool sounding creative phrases jumbled together. Beginning with self-imposed inappropriate guilt, moving towards shame about selling out with Nevermind, sunburn/freezerburn = hopelessness or complete entrapment. The "enemy" is of course Kurt, the source of all her problems. He's choking on himself, an allusion to suicide. This could be his way of saying goodbye).

All in all is all we are All in all is all we are All in all is all we are All in all is all we are All in all is all we are

(our choices in life make us into the kind of person we become. We've made our bed, now we have to lie in it--fake, addicted, miserable).