For the Heart I Once Had

This beautiful day has reminded me on feelings which I felt for all my life but secretly. It seemed like The Heaven has gone to my heart...and I think that the same thing I felt long ago when my heart was pure and innocent, heart of a child. One final sigh for the times which I have forgotten but loved. Once my heart beat to the rhythm of falling snow, rhythm of childish life. Now the river blackened below flows trough the mountain virgin snow. It is not anymore sparkling... It is a contrast to idyllic snow of childish dreams and innocence. For the heart I'll nevermore have, For the child in me, forever gone, Music which I play goes, like river through mountain virgin snow flows but it longs for the childish heart I once had. Today, I carry all the weight of life. My heart is faded and old. The heart of the child is torn and forlorn, weak but still hoping that child will never die within me. Hoping that the same old nights of dreaming awake near window will come again, everything what have I dreamed about and what I could ever be, I will one day fulfill. Time will never heal the wounds which world has ridged on me. The scars are too deep... Time will only kill all the beauty which childish heart cares.

For the heart I'll nevermore have, For the child in me, forever gone, Music which I play goes, like river through mountain virgin snow flows because it longs for the childish heart I once had...

Actual Lyrics:

Heaven today is but a way To a place I once called home Heart of a child, one final sigh As another love goes cold

Once my heart beat to the rhythm of the falling snow Blackened below, the river now flows A stream of molten virgin snow

For the heart I`ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had

Living today without a way To understand the weight of the world Faded and torn, old and forlorn My weak and hoping heart

For the child, for the light For the heart I once had I`ll believe and foresee Everything I could ever be

For the heart I`ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had

Time will not heal a Dead Boy`s scars Time will kill

For the heart I`ll never have For the child forever gone The music flows, because it longs For the heart I once had

"For the heart I`ll never have For the child forever gone"

Tuomas comments in interviews a lot that childlike innocence is a big influence in some of his songs. I think it was for this one, definitely. Childlike innocence is gone, and one can never look at the world the same as when you are a child.

Certainly a call back in time to Century Child, which is fine with me, it's my favorite Nightwish album, but it's odd to see and hear this song, one of innocence lost (though, notably, not as dark as his previous songs involving a similar theme), mixed into the newer works that are for more filled with hope, such as Amaranth.

i must say i do love this song, one of my top 3 off DPP.

Like a lot of the Dark Passion Play songs, I think this is another reference to the split between Nightwish and Tarja. He was in love with her, yes, but not in a sexual way, I belive. As he says: "Let's say that we had a special and emotional relationship without any romantic attatchments. The fire was burning between her voice and my songs." I believe that in this one he feels lost without her guiding light... but maybe I'm just crazy.

@dolls..yes perhaps. Certainly the split was hard for him and, judging by the songs, he seemed to be quite upset. I think this song deals in general with the "self pitying" thing Tuomas likes so much lol. He doesn't like himself, he clearly stated it. And in this song he tells us he was better before and his heart is now cold and torn: "Faded and torn, old and forlorn My weak and hoping heart"

The child means innocence, and what he was before. I like the lyrics of this song (not the music though), it's very sadl. My favourite part is: "Time will not heal a Dead Boy`s scars Time will kill"

I think this is a direct reference to "Dead Boy's Poem" and "Bless the Child", that convey a child and their childhood being "dead" when they reach adulthood because they have lost all innocence.

Time will not heal a Dead Boy's scars. Time will kill.

Is a statement saying that no one can go back to how they were in childhood, so the whole song is basically mourning what someone used to be like, and how they can't get it back due to the "weight of the world".

There are also countless references to the past and the child, something Tuomas constantly uses in his lyrics as a motif.

I think this is about Tarja and Nightwish's breakup. It shows Tuomas is no longer happy with his life, because Tarja was turning away from the band, and he's saying he wants to turn to a child again, because when you're a child, you are innocent of all sin. I think he blames himself for turning Tarja into what she is now, and at the same time, he was glad to let her go, becaue as he said in the open letter to Tarja, they had all been feeling bad long enough. He's also saying how he's still writng music becasue he wants to find his heart again:"The music flows because it longs, for the heart I once had."

A beautiful song for certain, and so sad. I'm leaning towards the agreement that it is about a loss of childlike innocence, and when one person grows up they lose that innocence. A recurring theme in most Nightwish songs, however I think this one is most directed to someone who has just lost his/her innocence, whether it was from a sexual act, the viewing of a horrific crime, or even a different look at a simple day; the person in question is simply a child who lost their innocence and grew out of it, and they only wish they could get that unattainable innocence back.