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Father forgive me for I know not what I do
I tried everything but I'll leave it up to you
I don't want to live, I don't know why
I don't have no reasons, I just want to die
[Chorus]
I'm a suicidal failure, I've got to get some help
I have suicidal tendencies but I can't kill myself
I'm tired of this way of life, my patience has expried
I'm barely just 20 but my life I will retire
I went down to a rifle store, I bought myself a gun
I point it at my head but I couldn't get the job done
[Chorus]
I took all my mother's sleeping pills
I jumped off a freeway bridge
I drank three kinds of poison
And drove my car off a ridge
I beat myself with a bat
Put a noose around my head
I overdosed on heroin
But I'm still not dead
[Chorus]
Death may not be the answer
It can't be all that great
But me I'm not into living
With life I can't relate
By some masochistic reasoning I think that it will be fun
I want to start my second life now
So shoot me with your gun
[Chorus]
I'm looking forward-suicidal
I'm really bored-suicidal
You want to die-suicidal
Then die-suicidal
Honestly-suicidal
At the game-suicidal
At my school-suicidal
At the bar-suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
I tried everything but I'll leave it up to you
I don't want to live, I don't know why
I don't have no reasons, I just want to die
[Chorus]
I'm a suicidal failure, I've got to get some help
I have suicidal tendencies but I can't kill myself
I'm tired of this way of life, my patience has expried
I'm barely just 20 but my life I will retire
I went down to a rifle store, I bought myself a gun
I point it at my head but I couldn't get the job done
[Chorus]
I took all my mother's sleeping pills
I jumped off a freeway bridge
I drank three kinds of poison
And drove my car off a ridge
I beat myself with a bat
Put a noose around my head
I overdosed on heroin
But I'm still not dead
[Chorus]
Death may not be the answer
It can't be all that great
But me I'm not into living
With life I can't relate
By some masochistic reasoning I think that it will be fun
I want to start my second life now
So shoot me with your gun
[Chorus]
I'm looking forward-suicidal
I'm really bored-suicidal
You want to die-suicidal
Then die-suicidal
Honestly-suicidal
At the game-suicidal
At my school-suicidal
At the bar-suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
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Suicidal Failure Lyrics as written by Mike Muir
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@yallRstupid I don't think it is Mike being sarcastic, but rather providing a social commentary on the subject matter of suicide. As @Tricky1979 commented ST have touched on many socially taboo subjects in their career.
I think the failure is perhaps a social commentary on that this is their call out for help. That is, they don't know how to ask for help so resort to suicide attempts (as they get attention, etc. etc. from these acts). It is not being sarcastic in the sense their problems are "small", but rather looking at why their suicides are failing ... it appears that they are intentionally not succeeding for a reason (and the only reason I could imagine is because they want help ... but no one is listening).
This sort of fits similar songs on this album such as Institutionalized where it explores issues of disconnection between different generations. This song seems to be exploring a similar disconnection.