So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Cause I don't belong here.
Cause I don't belong here.
Cause I don't belong here.
Those days it was all I wanted,
Nowadays it feels all the same.
Used to stare at my bedroom ceiling,
Wishing everything could change.
Now it's hard when you're always searching for the life that you left behind.
Time disappears, year after year,
How the hell did I get here?
Cause I feel so far away.
Minutes turn to hours and the hours into days.
I gave up everything.
You don't know what you got until you throw it all away.
Cause I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
No, I don't belong.
I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
Looking back on the past, all the time I wasted.
Running from everyone that tells me that I'm fading out.
Must be mistaken cause I, I, I don't feel anything.
You know I got this brain, it drives me insane.
Some days I feel I can't take the pain, I'm gone.
I can't explain it cause I, I, I don't need anything, no...
I feel so far away.
Minutes turn to hours and the hours into days.
I gave up everything.
You don't know what you got until you throw it all away.
Cause I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
No, I don't belong.
I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
Cause I don't belong here.
Cause I don't belong here.
Those days it was all I wanted,
Nowadays it feels all the same.
Used to stare at my bedroom ceiling,
Wishing everything could change.
Now it's hard when you're always searching for the life that you left behind.
Time disappears, year after year,
How the hell did I get here?
Cause I feel so far away.
Minutes turn to hours and the hours into days.
I gave up everything.
You don't know what you got until you throw it all away.
Cause I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
No, I don't belong.
I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
Looking back on the past, all the time I wasted.
Running from everyone that tells me that I'm fading out.
Must be mistaken cause I, I, I don't feel anything.
You know I got this brain, it drives me insane.
Some days I feel I can't take the pain, I'm gone.
I can't explain it cause I, I, I don't need anything, no...
I feel so far away.
Minutes turn to hours and the hours into days.
I gave up everything.
You don't know what you got until you throw it all away.
Cause I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
No, I don't belong.
I don't belong here, I don't belong here, I don't belong.
Lyrics submitted by EternalTearsOfSorrow, edited by AdamArtz
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I think this is about pondering ones place in this world & why no matter where you end up, it never feels like home.