Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Sometimes denial feels like a hole in the sky
Cutting me down in my prime
You took my time
Kept running your mouth on my dime
Crying 'cause you lost your free ride
It's not you
It's on me
I let myself believe
Still you
Can't see
I've seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
Maybe you'll see
Not just me that you mislead
Focused on the things that you'll never be
No, no, no
And time
Takes time
We're all on the clock for your crimes
The price is something that you could never pay
It's not you
It's on me
I let myself believe
Still you
Can't see
I've seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
It's not you
It's on me
I won't stop for these dreams
Every time I push you away
You play this crying game
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
It's not you
It's on me
I won't stop for these dreams
Every time I push you away
You play this crying game
Sick of pretending that you're fine
No, no, no
That gun in your mouth just isn't mine
No, no, no
Sick of pretending that you're fine
No, no, no
That gun in your mouth just isn't mine
Cutting me down in my prime
You took my time
Kept running your mouth on my dime
Crying 'cause you lost your free ride
It's not you
It's on me
I let myself believe
Still you
Can't see
I've seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
Maybe you'll see
Not just me that you mislead
Focused on the things that you'll never be
No, no, no
And time
Takes time
We're all on the clock for your crimes
The price is something that you could never pay
It's not you
It's on me
I let myself believe
Still you
Can't see
I've seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
It's not you
It's on me
I won't stop for these dreams
Every time I push you away
You play this crying game
Every time I push you away
You come back
Back to me to place the blame
This crying game
It's not you
It's on me
I won't stop for these dreams
Every time I push you away
You play this crying game
Sick of pretending that you're fine
No, no, no
That gun in your mouth just isn't mine
No, no, no
Sick of pretending that you're fine
No, no, no
That gun in your mouth just isn't mine
Lyrics submitted by EternalTearsOfSorrow, edited by Daozen
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Real lyrics:
Sometimes denial feels like a hole in the sky Cutting me down in my prime You took my time, kept running your mouth on my dime Crying 'cause you lost your free ride
It's not you It's on me I let myself believe Still you Can't see I seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away You come back Back to me to place the blame This crying game
Maybe you'll see, not just me that you mislead Focused on the things that you'll never be, no no no And time takes time, we're all on the clock for your crimes The price is something that you could never pay
It's not you It's on me I let myself believe Still you Can't see I seen through all your schemes
Every time I push you away You come back Back to me to place the blame This crying game
It's not you It's on me I won't stop for these dreams Every time I push you away You play this crying game
Every time I push you away You come back Back to me to place the blame This crying game
It's not you It's on me I won't stop for these dreams Every time I push you away You play this crying game
Sick of pretending that you're fine No no no That gun in your mouth just isn't mine No no no Sick of pretending that you're fine No no no That gun in your mouth just isn't mine