I've never really liked this band or this song. Found the vocals annoying and the lines repetitive.
But today, just 2 days after ending my first real relationship of 2.5 years, it happened so that I clicked on a link to lead me to this song. I can't help the crying. I'm not the first person to break up with someone they loved, but why does it hurt so bad listening to these simple lyrics?
I was the one who decided to end it. I don't regret it, it was long coming and necessary. No lies, no cheating, no insulting. But we couldn't communicate, we grew apart. I feel like if we had a big crazy fight it would be easier, but breaking up while you still love and care for them is incredibly hard. After the covid started, we had to stay in different cities and since our country is in a bad situation and our parents are religious, it was impossible to meet even for a few hours. I haven't seen him in a year, and it looks like I wouldn't for at least 3-4 months more. We broke up over text amicably without a fight but with lots of crying. Long distance sucks. Not being brave enough to talk about everything sucks. Being insecure and letting our insecurities get in the way of our relationship suck. We thought if we ignored the problems and kept them to ourselves we wouldn't fight and eventually it would get better, but no. The worst thing is knowing that it won't get any better after some point because the relationship started our that way, the foundation is weak. It's like deleting a small line on a script of code that breaks everything.
We knew it was gonna happen. We knew we had to say those words. We promised to stay friends, we promised to keep talking. But still, I know I lost my best friend and it will never be the same. I know I lost the chance of hugging that person one last time, not knowing the pandemic would last this long. Although at the moment I feel wounded and I think nobody will ever love me as he does, I know in time we will drift apart, have new people in our lives and have different lives. It's just painful to think you won't be even thinking of that often the person who was once your everything. Thinking about all the things that we could do differently, and the potential future we would have together is breaking my heart so bad that I cannot breathe. Everywhere is filled with memories, a color that looked good on him, a dessert he loved, thousand of photos some of them I can never delete, concert tickets, a drawing, a piece of paper, that blue sweater he gifted me... But like in the song, now that it has ended, we tend to miss the good memories and ignore the frightening ones that lead to this ending.
I feel like even years later, when I'm over this, I'll still regret all the things we did that fucked our relationship up. Please, people. Please always talk. Always communicate. Don't pretend you are someone else, don't pretend you don't care when there's a problem. Ignoring and pretending it's okay wont fix a thing. Talk everything through with the one you love because in time the smallest things become unfixable and all you can do is wish things turned out differently.
Sorry for any language errors. I'm just so sad and this song made me spill everything out.
I've never really liked this band or this song. Found the vocals annoying and the lines repetitive.
But today, just 2 days after ending my first real relationship of 2.5 years, it happened so that I clicked on a link to lead me to this song. I can't help the crying. I'm not the first person to break up with someone they loved, but why does it hurt so bad listening to these simple lyrics?
I was the one who decided to end it. I don't regret it, it was long coming and necessary. No lies, no cheating, no insulting. But we couldn't communicate, we grew apart. I feel like if we had a big crazy fight it would be easier, but breaking up while you still love and care for them is incredibly hard. After the covid started, we had to stay in different cities and since our country is in a bad situation and our parents are religious, it was impossible to meet even for a few hours. I haven't seen him in a year, and it looks like I wouldn't for at least 3-4 months more. We broke up over text amicably without a fight but with lots of crying. Long distance sucks. Not being brave enough to talk about everything sucks. Being insecure and letting our insecurities get in the way of our relationship suck. We thought if we ignored the problems and kept them to ourselves we wouldn't fight and eventually it would get better, but no. The worst thing is knowing that it won't get any better after some point because the relationship started our that way, the foundation is weak. It's like deleting a small line on a script of code that breaks everything.
We knew it was gonna happen. We knew we had to say those words. We promised to stay friends, we promised to keep talking. But still, I know I lost my best friend and it will never be the same. I know I lost the chance of hugging that person one last time, not knowing the pandemic would last this long. Although at the moment I feel wounded and I think nobody will ever love me as he does, I know in time we will drift apart, have new people in our lives and have different lives. It's just painful to think you won't be even thinking of that often the person who was once your everything. Thinking about all the things that we could do differently, and the potential future we would have together is breaking my heart so bad that I cannot breathe. Everywhere is filled with memories, a color that looked good on him, a dessert he loved, thousand of photos some of them I can never delete, concert tickets, a drawing, a piece of paper, that blue sweater he gifted me... But like in the song, now that it has ended, we tend to miss the good memories and ignore the frightening ones that lead to this ending.
I feel like even years later, when I'm over this, I'll still regret all the things we did that fucked our relationship up. Please, people. Please always talk. Always communicate. Don't pretend you are someone else, don't pretend you don't care when there's a problem. Ignoring and pretending it's okay wont fix a thing. Talk everything through with the one you love because in time the smallest things become unfixable and all you can do is wish things turned out differently.
Sorry for any language errors. I'm just so sad and this song made me spill everything out.