I accidentally hit submit, because of stupid ads, so this is the continuation of my other comment.
He’s running to God, he’s pushing through the pain of his sin/sorrow/shame/regret. The only talking that happens after his one night stand is the radio (which I think of it as a worship station, because that it what I have pre-set on my radio, is what I listen to when I do use the radio, and it furthers his throwing himself toward God’s presence) There’s no talking with the woman, because it was solely a sexual thing, and there’s no talking to anyone else about him giving in because he is ashamed.
you were my friend, and i was the same
riding that hope was like catching some train
well now i just walk, well i don’t mind the rain
but i’ve been singing so much softer than i did back then
He had previously found and embraced the comfort in his one night stands (however short they lasted). It (giving in) was as easy as catching a train, just needed to be in the right place at the right time (and most people can recognize the patterns on when and where to be). But he just walks now/he doesn’t stay still (the shoes)/he leaves before something happens, and he doesn’t mind what some people look at as bad (going home alone/being in the rain). He is singing so much softer than when he used to embrace his sin. Either - when he used to embrace his sin/not regulate his actions, he was angry and listened to loud/violent songs, because they fit what he allowed to enter his mind, but now he listens to slower, calmer, and more peaceful music that fits his new mindset - or - he because he has been resisting his sin for so long, he doesn’t have to try as hard/scream out as loud to keep the bad thought/temptations out.
the night, i think, is darker than we can really say
and god’s been living in that ocean, sending us all the big waves
and i wish i was a sailor so i could know just how to trust,
maybe i could bring some grace back home to the dryland for all of us
The night is not just dark because of the lack of light, but because that is when the attacks (from Lucifer) are harder to resist (because there are less people around to judge/hold you responsible/it is easier to find people that are willing to sleep with you/it is quieter; hence making the voices that persist (temptation) seem louder). God’s in the spiritual world sending us help to overcome our temptation. He wishes that he could rid himself of his body (which is what Satan speaks to us through) and just bathe in the glory of the lord without having to worry about sinning. He imagines returning to his body, and him having been in God’s presence, be able to provide grace (water) to those that he had not been able to before (maybe including himself). The world is referenced to as the dry land, because it is lacking in the water that God is sending in “big waves”. It’s not because of lack of water (clearly! God is sending it in big waves (to many people)), but because the people aren’t accepting the water that is being provided for them (aren’t looking to Jesus for help).
say what you say, you say it so well
just say you will wait, like snow on the rail
i been combing that train yard for some kind of sign
even my own self, it just don’t seem mine
Now he changes his dialogue to be directed towards God.
Tell me I’m forgiven. You say it better than anyone else because you are the only one who can forgive my sins so that I may get into heaven. Please remind me that I’m worth it/that you are longing for me in heaven. My body doesn’t seem to be mine. It could either be - it doesn’t feel right to claim this body as mine, as all thing are from and belong to you Lord - or - It just doesn’t do what I want it to. Why do I keep on sinning! It just doesn’t listen :(
give me darkness when i’m dreaming, give me moonlight when i’m leaving
give me mustang horse and muscle, cuz i won’t be goin gentle
give me slant-eye looks when i’m lying, give me fingers when i’m crying
and i ain’t out there to cheat you, see i killed that damn coyote in me…
He wants to take a stand for his holiness. He won’t give into sin without first putting up a fight. He wants the strength to not give into sin, that only God can provide. God, call me out when I’m lying. Comfort me when I’m crying. My intentions are pure. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I don’t want to turn my back on you anymore. Look! Look, I shut Lucifer out of my mind (with your help, of course) to make room for you! Please forgive me and take me back, even though I was the one that shoved you away (by sinning) in the first place.
I accidentally hit submit, because of stupid ads, so this is the continuation of my other comment.
He’s running to God, he’s pushing through the pain of his sin/sorrow/shame/regret. The only talking that happens after his one night stand is the radio (which I think of it as a worship station, because that it what I have pre-set on my radio, is what I listen to when I do use the radio, and it furthers his throwing himself toward God’s presence) There’s no talking with the woman, because it was solely a sexual thing, and there’s no talking to anyone else about him giving in because he is ashamed.
you were my friend, and i was the same riding that hope was like catching some train well now i just walk, well i don’t mind the rain but i’ve been singing so much softer than i did back then
He had previously found and embraced the comfort in his one night stands (however short they lasted). It (giving in) was as easy as catching a train, just needed to be in the right place at the right time (and most people can recognize the patterns on when and where to be). But he just walks now/he doesn’t stay still (the shoes)/he leaves before something happens, and he doesn’t mind what some people look at as bad (going home alone/being in the rain). He is singing so much softer than when he used to embrace his sin. Either - when he used to embrace his sin/not regulate his actions, he was angry and listened to loud/violent songs, because they fit what he allowed to enter his mind, but now he listens to slower, calmer, and more peaceful music that fits his new mindset - or - he because he has been resisting his sin for so long, he doesn’t have to try as hard/scream out as loud to keep the bad thought/temptations out.
the night, i think, is darker than we can really say and god’s been living in that ocean, sending us all the big waves and i wish i was a sailor so i could know just how to trust, maybe i could bring some grace back home to the dryland for all of us
The night is not just dark because of the lack of light, but because that is when the attacks (from Lucifer) are harder to resist (because there are less people around to judge/hold you responsible/it is easier to find people that are willing to sleep with you/it is quieter; hence making the voices that persist (temptation) seem louder). God’s in the spiritual world sending us help to overcome our temptation. He wishes that he could rid himself of his body (which is what Satan speaks to us through) and just bathe in the glory of the lord without having to worry about sinning. He imagines returning to his body, and him having been in God’s presence, be able to provide grace (water) to those that he had not been able to before (maybe including himself). The world is referenced to as the dry land, because it is lacking in the water that God is sending in “big waves”. It’s not because of lack of water (clearly! God is sending it in big waves (to many people)), but because the people aren’t accepting the water that is being provided for them (aren’t looking to Jesus for help).
say what you say, you say it so well just say you will wait, like snow on the rail i been combing that train yard for some kind of sign even my own self, it just don’t seem mine
Now he changes his dialogue to be directed towards God. Tell me I’m forgiven. You say it better than anyone else because you are the only one who can forgive my sins so that I may get into heaven. Please remind me that I’m worth it/that you are longing for me in heaven. My body doesn’t seem to be mine. It could either be - it doesn’t feel right to claim this body as mine, as all thing are from and belong to you Lord - or - It just doesn’t do what I want it to. Why do I keep on sinning! It just doesn’t listen :(
give me darkness when i’m dreaming, give me moonlight when i’m leaving give me mustang horse and muscle, cuz i won’t be goin gentle give me slant-eye looks when i’m lying, give me fingers when i’m crying and i ain’t out there to cheat you, see i killed that damn coyote in me…
He wants to take a stand for his holiness. He won’t give into sin without first putting up a fight. He wants the strength to not give into sin, that only God can provide. God, call me out when I’m lying. Comfort me when I’m crying. My intentions are pure. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I don’t want to turn my back on you anymore. Look! Look, I shut Lucifer out of my mind (with your help, of course) to make room for you! Please forgive me and take me back, even though I was the one that shoved you away (by sinning) in the first place.