The song provides a glimpse into the fragile emotional state of someone soon after their world has been flipped upside down by a major betrayal or other traumatic events. It about dealing with the unknowns, uncertainty, and doubt that follow when things you thought you knew reveal themselves to not be true.
The individual knows that to heal they need to put aside time to work through what has happened, but doing so may require them to revisit painful events and discover other things they don't want to know. So instead, the individual tries to go on living their life and stay busy with work and other activities. But the fear & hurt from the unresolved issues are always right below the surface, leaving them in a perpetual state of anxiety and panic.
The individual may have been in a very intense, but probably unhealthy, relationship with someone whome they cared for alot. Over time the relationship likely experienced increasing amounts of betrayal of trust such as infidelity and perhaps abuse. While the individual was the recipient of these betrayals early on, he was submissive and may have made excuses which justified the the actions of his partner. But as the relationship escalated his emotions eventually got the best of him and he himself ended fighting back and contributing to the toxicty of the relationship in ways he never thought were possible.
Now that the relationship is over, he can't ignore the fact that the relationship has changed him. His ideas of what is "normal" and what is "right or wrong" have shifted, but not in the way he'd like. He wonders if he can still be the person he always wanted to be? Or is he now as damaged as his previous partner? Will he be able to control this newly discovered side of himself which seems to be triggered so easily now, or is he destined to repeat the cycle of toxity in his future relationships. Is he putting anyone close to him at risk?
The song provides a glimpse into the fragile emotional state of someone soon after their world has been flipped upside down by a major betrayal or other traumatic events. It about dealing with the unknowns, uncertainty, and doubt that follow when things you thought you knew reveal themselves to not be true.
The individual knows that to heal they need to put aside time to work through what has happened, but doing so may require them to revisit painful events and discover other things they don't want to know. So instead, the individual tries to go on living their life and stay busy with work and other activities. But the fear & hurt from the unresolved issues are always right below the surface, leaving them in a perpetual state of anxiety and panic.
The individual may have been in a very intense, but probably unhealthy, relationship with someone whome they cared for alot. Over time the relationship likely experienced increasing amounts of betrayal of trust such as infidelity and perhaps abuse. While the individual was the recipient of these betrayals early on, he was submissive and may have made excuses which justified the the actions of his partner. But as the relationship escalated his emotions eventually got the best of him and he himself ended fighting back and contributing to the toxicty of the relationship in ways he never thought were possible.
Now that the relationship is over, he can't ignore the fact that the relationship has changed him. His ideas of what is "normal" and what is "right or wrong" have shifted, but not in the way he'd like. He wonders if he can still be the person he always wanted to be? Or is he now as damaged as his previous partner? Will he be able to control this newly discovered side of himself which seems to be triggered so easily now, or is he destined to repeat the cycle of toxity in his future relationships. Is he putting anyone close to him at risk?