I feel this song is about the disconnect you can feel with the world when you are in your teens. Prob with a hint of depression as well. The singer is feelings like she does not belong. Then there is this other person, who apparently likes her...when nobody else did and when she felt she could not connect with people. But at the time she could not accept that and pushed him/her away. Afterwards she always felt ashamed about her behavior, because this was a highlight in a year that otherwise was terrible. Now that she is older she has let go of some of that guilt, and can also see it for what it was....a special connection that still means a lot to her because it helped her in a very difficult time.
I feel this song is about the disconnect you can feel with the world when you are in your teens. Prob with a hint of depression as well. The singer is feelings like she does not belong. Then there is this other person, who apparently likes her...when nobody else did and when she felt she could not connect with people. But at the time she could not accept that and pushed him/her away. Afterwards she always felt ashamed about her behavior, because this was a highlight in a year that otherwise was terrible. Now that she is older she has let go of some of that guilt, and can also see it for what it was....a special connection that still means a lot to her because it helped her in a very difficult time.