A lot of people i know say its a song about suicide, but to me its about a distant relationship about an insecure boy and his girlfriend who has moved away. he can barely see her and has begun thinking that he is not enough for her and is worried she may leave him due to the distance between them.
"There's another world inside of me that you may never see"
so much happens that he doesn't have the time to tell her when they get to talk.
"There's secrets in this life that I can't hide"
In his time when he lived near this girl much happened, and he is constantly looking back at the mistakes he made in that time
"Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away, maybe I'm just blind
Maybe I'm just blind"
He knows he is insecure and thinks maybe he just doesn't understand something, but he cant find out what and is stuck thinking negatively
"So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared"
He asks simple things of her to see if she even still cares about him.
"and love me when I'm gone"
he asks the one thing he truly wants from her. to love him although he wont always be able to be there for her, despite how much he wants to.
"Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be"
he thinks about his time when he could spend it with her, and he wishes he was even better for her when he could be. his bad impressions from the past make him think she will leave him now.
"I'll never let you down even if I could"
he promises he will never mess up for her, but thinks he doesn't have any opportunities to mess up anymore
"I'd give up everything if only for your good"
he is willing to do anything, give up everything for this girls well being
"So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared you won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone"
"When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin"
possibly talking about a doctor attempting to diagnose him with depression or find out why he is acting in such a way. he is just insecure, and it has begun affecting him in everyday life
"I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends"
he hasn't told any of his friends about how his relationship is going in his mind, and he sure as hell wont tell his girlfriend.
"And roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone"
referring back to the darkness with the light he cant find. he is alone in these thoughts and is afraid to tell anyone.
"Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone"
part of him still tells himself that the relationship is not dead, but another part of him feels as if it has died when she moved away.
"Maybe I'm just blind"
referring back to the darkness, he begins thinking that instead of the light not being there that it is him who is the problem behind the insecurities and they cause him to be "blind"
these are just how i interpret the lyrics. everything aligned in my head the first time i heard the song because i am currently in this predicament of constantly being worried because my girlfriend is always busy. maybe this is the true definition, maybe it is about suicide, whatever. this is the way i hear it and maybe the way some others do as well.
A lot of people i know say its a song about suicide, but to me its about a distant relationship about an insecure boy and his girlfriend who has moved away. he can barely see her and has begun thinking that he is not enough for her and is worried she may leave him due to the distance between them.
"There's another world inside of me that you may never see" so much happens that he doesn't have the time to tell her when they get to talk.
"There's secrets in this life that I can't hide" In his time when he lived near this girl much happened, and he is constantly looking back at the mistakes he made in that time
"Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find Maybe it's too far away, maybe I'm just blind Maybe I'm just blind" He knows he is insecure and thinks maybe he just doesn't understand something, but he cant find out what and is stuck thinking negatively
"So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared" He asks simple things of her to see if she even still cares about him.
"and love me when I'm gone" he asks the one thing he truly wants from her. to love him although he wont always be able to be there for her, despite how much he wants to.
"Everything I am and everything in me Wants to be the one you wanted me to be" he thinks about his time when he could spend it with her, and he wishes he was even better for her when he could be. his bad impressions from the past make him think she will leave him now.
"I'll never let you down even if I could" he promises he will never mess up for her, but thinks he doesn't have any opportunities to mess up anymore
"I'd give up everything if only for your good" he is willing to do anything, give up everything for this girls well being
"So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared you won't always be there So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone"
"When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin" possibly talking about a doctor attempting to diagnose him with depression or find out why he is acting in such a way. he is just insecure, and it has begun affecting him in everyday life
"I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends" he hasn't told any of his friends about how his relationship is going in his mind, and he sure as hell wont tell his girlfriend.
"And roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone" referring back to the darkness with the light he cant find. he is alone in these thoughts and is afraid to tell anyone.
"Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone" part of him still tells himself that the relationship is not dead, but another part of him feels as if it has died when she moved away.
"Maybe I'm just blind" referring back to the darkness, he begins thinking that instead of the light not being there that it is him who is the problem behind the insecurities and they cause him to be "blind"
these are just how i interpret the lyrics. everything aligned in my head the first time i heard the song because i am currently in this predicament of constantly being worried because my girlfriend is always busy. maybe this is the true definition, maybe it is about suicide, whatever. this is the way i hear it and maybe the way some others do as well.