This song perfectly describes my depression / anxiety / existential philosophy.
"I put on my clothes like a body guard
I put the dogs on patrol in my own back yard
I don't wanna fight but I'm constantly ready
And I don't rock the boat, but it's always unsteady"
Walking around with a feeling like the world is out to get you and you're just trying to slip under the radar. Clothes are a shield from society. Put out the dogs to keep people out of your backyard / from getting close to you.
"There's an elephant in my head
And I tip toe around it
There are eggshells on the floor
Therefore I never touch the ground"
Trying to fool yourself into thinking you're happy and tip-toeing around the dark thoughts in your head, feeling like if you slip up you'll fall into a bad state of mind.
"It's like that old black hole,
No matter how you try,
You set out each day
Never to arrive"
Simply the depression mindset: nothing you do will matter in the end.
"I got my eyes on the prize
But it looks just like a mystery
And it all goes by on the lonesome trail to victory"
I'm working toward bettering myself, but I have no idea why.
"I'm drawing in the blinds, I got my own four walls
And the show really starts once the curtain falls"
Introversion and comfort alone in your home. I interpret the curtain falling to be death, and looking forward to it.
"Take this thorn from my side
Fix this chip on my shoulder
Time is racing with the clock
And I ain't getting any older"
A mild cry for help. Possibly considering suicide (I ain't getting any older).
"I put on my finest thread
And I wrap up my body tight
With the sun in my eyes
I step into the night
Like the mystery in the dark
Oh, it's just another kind of light
I don't expect you to believe me
But everything is alright"
There's no fixing this, but I'm feeling okay for now. Getting back in a good state of mind.
"I don't make rules for a living
I don't do tricks for a dime"
I live for myself, rather than for others. I do work that I enjoy rather than selling my happiness for survival.
"I was born on a good day,
Deaf, dumb and blind."
Forcing a positive outlook and deciding to live even though reality sucks.
"Who am I to tell the truth?
I don't even know what it is.
I don't know how to say it but I know that I can show you."
This speaks to the authenticity part of existentialism. I can't tell you how to be personally happy because everyone has their own preferences. Just live for yourself rather than others.
"I tie my boots up tight
And I head straight for bed
There's a pistol and a crystal
Underneath my pillow"
Getting all ready to go out and then just collapsing in bed, drugs and suicide beckoning.
"There's a tender heart
Inside that ugly armadillo
"These are tears of joy,"
Cried the weeping willow"
He has a tender heart but feels people don't realize because he puts up a hard exterior. Tears of joy again playing into existentialism.
"There's a spirit in the air
And there ain't no way around it
I was not prepared to lose it
On the moment that I found it
It's like that old black hole,
No matter how you try,
You set out each day
Never to arrive"
Happy for now, but another depressive episode will make you lose your newfound mindset.
This song perfectly describes my depression / anxiety / existential philosophy.
"I put on my clothes like a body guard I put the dogs on patrol in my own back yard I don't wanna fight but I'm constantly ready And I don't rock the boat, but it's always unsteady"
Walking around with a feeling like the world is out to get you and you're just trying to slip under the radar. Clothes are a shield from society. Put out the dogs to keep people out of your backyard / from getting close to you.
"There's an elephant in my head And I tip toe around it There are eggshells on the floor Therefore I never touch the ground"
Trying to fool yourself into thinking you're happy and tip-toeing around the dark thoughts in your head, feeling like if you slip up you'll fall into a bad state of mind.
"It's like that old black hole, No matter how you try, You set out each day Never to arrive"
Simply the depression mindset: nothing you do will matter in the end.
"I got my eyes on the prize But it looks just like a mystery And it all goes by on the lonesome trail to victory"
I'm working toward bettering myself, but I have no idea why.
"I'm drawing in the blinds, I got my own four walls And the show really starts once the curtain falls"
Introversion and comfort alone in your home. I interpret the curtain falling to be death, and looking forward to it.
"Take this thorn from my side Fix this chip on my shoulder Time is racing with the clock And I ain't getting any older"
A mild cry for help. Possibly considering suicide (I ain't getting any older).
"I put on my finest thread And I wrap up my body tight With the sun in my eyes I step into the night Like the mystery in the dark Oh, it's just another kind of light I don't expect you to believe me But everything is alright"
There's no fixing this, but I'm feeling okay for now. Getting back in a good state of mind.
"I don't make rules for a living I don't do tricks for a dime"
I live for myself, rather than for others. I do work that I enjoy rather than selling my happiness for survival.
"I was born on a good day, Deaf, dumb and blind."
Forcing a positive outlook and deciding to live even though reality sucks.
"Who am I to tell the truth? I don't even know what it is. I don't know how to say it but I know that I can show you."
This speaks to the authenticity part of existentialism. I can't tell you how to be personally happy because everyone has their own preferences. Just live for yourself rather than others.
"I tie my boots up tight And I head straight for bed There's a pistol and a crystal Underneath my pillow"
Getting all ready to go out and then just collapsing in bed, drugs and suicide beckoning.
"There's a tender heart Inside that ugly armadillo "These are tears of joy," Cried the weeping willow"
He has a tender heart but feels people don't realize because he puts up a hard exterior. Tears of joy again playing into existentialism.
"There's a spirit in the air And there ain't no way around it I was not prepared to lose it On the moment that I found it It's like that old black hole, No matter how you try, You set out each day Never to arrive"
Happy for now, but another depressive episode will make you lose your newfound mindset.