I think when he says "the futures in my hands" he's meaning that his future literally depends on his actions. And the chorus really speaks to me, sometimes I don't want to talk or hear anyone talk, it's just all noise to me when I'm in this mood. And maybe since the future is in his hands he doesn't want to talk because it's stressful. Life is stressful sometimes.
I think when he says "the futures in my hands" he's meaning that his future literally depends on his actions. And the chorus really speaks to me, sometimes I don't want to talk or hear anyone talk, it's just all noise to me when I'm in this mood. And maybe since the future is in his hands he doesn't want to talk because it's stressful. Life is stressful sometimes.