"I wanna be a bottle blonde
I don't know why but I feel conned"
I think this means she wants to be perfect, beautiful.
She doesn't know what's wrong, but she feels conned, like something is wrong or missing in her life.
"I wanna be an idle teen
I wish I hadn't been so clean"
Saying that teens that are looked up to aren't clean, rather dirty/naughty.
"I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake
I wanna be a real fake"
When you're depressed you may want to only stay in your room and sleep. Because sleeping makes the world "go away" for at least a little bit. She wants to be like those fake teenagers.
"Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle
Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Feeling super, super, super! Suicidal"
She wishes her teenage years could've been different. When her biggest worries could've been fighting for being prom queen, instead of burning up a bible (losing her faith). Feeling (super, pretending to be fine) but really suicidal.
"The wasted years
The wasted youth
The pretty lies
The ugly truth
And the day has come where I have died
Only to find, I've come alive"
Her years and youth, wasted. Pretty lies, as in, pretending to be fine, being perfect, secretly with an eating disorder (I'll show proof of that later)
She broken and ruined, but in the end, she finds that death is what she was looking for all along, Death makes her feel alive.
"I wanna be a virgin pure
A 21st century whore
I want back my virginity
So I can feel infinity"
I'm not entirely sure on this one, but I think it means she wishes she was a virgin in high school, and a virgin now, so she can lose it. To be more attractive as a virgin, to be a whore. She wants her virginity to feel young again, and pure, only to be a whore.
"I wanna drink until I ache
I wanna make a big mistake
I want blood, guts, and angel cake
I'm gonna puke it anyway"
She wants to forget everything with alcohol. She wants to do something crazy as a mistake, to feel alive again.
For the "blood, guts, and angel cake.." I think this is proof of her eating disorder, bulimia. She wants to eat whatever, she'll puke it to be perfect after, though. After all, she does want to be a bottle blonde.
"Oh God, I'm gonna die alone"
She may be narcisistic, but she's worried that no one else will love her for how she is, and her past.
"Adolescence didn't make sense
A little loss of innocence
The ugliness of being a fool
Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?"
Youth is supposed to be beautiful, but for her it wasn't. It made no sense. Her eating disorder, her loss of innocence, still innocent, but not completely. She finds her youth ugly and foolish.
Overall, I think this is a song of her wanting to change her messed up teen years. She wishes could've spent her years better, but they were a horrible, ugly foolish, time for her.
"I wanna be a bottle blonde I don't know why but I feel conned"
I think this means she wants to be perfect, beautiful. She doesn't know what's wrong, but she feels conned, like something is wrong or missing in her life.
"I wanna be an idle teen I wish I hadn't been so clean"
Saying that teens that are looked up to aren't clean, rather dirty/naughty.
"I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake"
When you're depressed you may want to only stay in your room and sleep. Because sleeping makes the world "go away" for at least a little bit. She wants to be like those fake teenagers.
"Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super! Suicidal"
She wishes her teenage years could've been different. When her biggest worries could've been fighting for being prom queen, instead of burning up a bible (losing her faith). Feeling (super, pretending to be fine) but really suicidal.
"The wasted years The wasted youth The pretty lies The ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive"
Her years and youth, wasted. Pretty lies, as in, pretending to be fine, being perfect, secretly with an eating disorder (I'll show proof of that later) She broken and ruined, but in the end, she finds that death is what she was looking for all along, Death makes her feel alive.
"I wanna be a virgin pure A 21st century whore I want back my virginity So I can feel infinity"
I'm not entirely sure on this one, but I think it means she wishes she was a virgin in high school, and a virgin now, so she can lose it. To be more attractive as a virgin, to be a whore. She wants her virginity to feel young again, and pure, only to be a whore.
"I wanna drink until I ache I wanna make a big mistake I want blood, guts, and angel cake I'm gonna puke it anyway"
She wants to forget everything with alcohol. She wants to do something crazy as a mistake, to feel alive again. For the "blood, guts, and angel cake.." I think this is proof of her eating disorder, bulimia. She wants to eat whatever, she'll puke it to be perfect after, though. After all, she does want to be a bottle blonde.
"Oh God, I'm gonna die alone"
She may be narcisistic, but she's worried that no one else will love her for how she is, and her past.
"Adolescence didn't make sense A little loss of innocence The ugliness of being a fool Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?"
Youth is supposed to be beautiful, but for her it wasn't. It made no sense. Her eating disorder, her loss of innocence, still innocent, but not completely. She finds her youth ugly and foolish.
Overall, I think this is a song of her wanting to change her messed up teen years. She wishes could've spent her years better, but they were a horrible, ugly foolish, time for her.
I meant my interpretation, sorry.
I meant my interpretation, sorry.