This sums up a pretty big period of my life for me. It started back when I was about ten and didn't know songs like this existed, and it hasn't fully stopped. Finding this was bittersweet in a way, I didn't feel alone, but it hit home pretty hard, I didn't really know what to make of it.
There are still days in which I kind of pretend to be missing.
Sometimes I just want to be somewhere, anywhere but here, to be anyone but me. So I kind of start drifting away, lose myself in a book, a song, a daydream. In painting or sad attempts at making music. Because I can't deal with things, so I escape. That is what the dreamy quality of this song makes me think about.
But no matter how hard I try, it's not real, it's not enough. I still feel reality looming over me, And the song is dream-like, yes- but with a dark atmosphere, with a hint of fear, of desperately clinging to the fantasy because the real world is scary and unfair and everything you ever cherish at some point in your life dies.
I bet most will huff and smirk, then roll their eyes and keep scrolling before reading more than a handful of words, but I still wanted to share this, not sure why.
Thank you Zekhmeton. You give me the perfect kindness i just needed, searched without knowning; At the moment the feelings from all over my memories an my shameful sadness wreck me.
Thank you Zekhmeton. You give me the perfect kindness i just needed, searched without knowning; At the moment the feelings from all over my memories an my shameful sadness wreck me.
This sums up a pretty big period of my life for me. It started back when I was about ten and didn't know songs like this existed, and it hasn't fully stopped. Finding this was bittersweet in a way, I didn't feel alone, but it hit home pretty hard, I didn't really know what to make of it. There are still days in which I kind of pretend to be missing. Sometimes I just want to be somewhere, anywhere but here, to be anyone but me. So I kind of start drifting away, lose myself in a book, a song, a daydream. In painting or sad attempts at making music. Because I can't deal with things, so I escape. That is what the dreamy quality of this song makes me think about. But no matter how hard I try, it's not real, it's not enough. I still feel reality looming over me, And the song is dream-like, yes- but with a dark atmosphere, with a hint of fear, of desperately clinging to the fantasy because the real world is scary and unfair and everything you ever cherish at some point in your life dies. I bet most will huff and smirk, then roll their eyes and keep scrolling before reading more than a handful of words, but I still wanted to share this, not sure why.
Thank you Zekhmeton. You give me the perfect kindness i just needed, searched without knowning; At the moment the feelings from all over my memories an my shameful sadness wreck me.
Thank you Zekhmeton. You give me the perfect kindness i just needed, searched without knowning; At the moment the feelings from all over my memories an my shameful sadness wreck me.
You have just described me.
You have just described me.
this is beautiful.. exactly the way i feel about the song... : (
this is beautiful.. exactly the way i feel about the song... : (
@Zekhmet you're beautiful
@Zekhmet you're beautiful
Thank you for sharing your comment, this is a very beautiful way of putting it. And hopefully you know that you are never truly alone.
Thank you for sharing your comment, this is a very beautiful way of putting it. And hopefully you know that you are never truly alone.