When I first listened to this song I couldn't help it... I had to cry! This song perfectly describes what I've been feeling in the past few months. My mom was hospitalized January 3rd of this year and she went through a long, agonizing battle until her heart finally stopped beating on February 28th.
“When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold”
Here it made me remember the moment when my mom’s beautiful dark eyes opened once again from an induced coma. I remember missing seeing them while she was in coma, and once they opened it felt like my whole life was starting over with a beautiful sunrise!
“And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?”
Here it made me think of all the struggles she had to go through, and it reminded me of how she handled them. My mother was a very positive woman, always grateful for every day God had given her. Making the best out of the worst circumstances, and there is no doubt in my mind that she is right where she ought to be, in Heaven!
“I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up”
This was the attitude I had during the struggle in the hospital. I never gave up. Not when the doctors told me that she wouldn’t make it, not when they were hesitant of practicing CPR even though my mom had requested it. Never giving up, always looking up, giving her all of my love.
“And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find”
At this point I was almost about to stop the car because I couldn’t take it no more. This is exactly my attitude, I even posted something similar on Facebook a day after her passing. Now her soul needs her space to do some navigating, in the meantime I’ll be patiently waiting for her.
“Some [stars] even fall to the earth”
Days after my mom’s death, I would find myself looking at the dark sky, with all of its stars. And I would look at particular one and wonder if she became this star and if she could come down to earth to visit me. I later had a dream where she did.
“I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make”
This is what my mom thought me my whole life, and I applied it! I went to the hospital almost every day except for a couple of days where I became sick and didn’t want to make her get worse. I did everything I could, I helped as much as I could, I never walked away!
“I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not
And who I am”
This was my lesson. I had to learn what I got, and what I’m not, AND WHO I AM. I GOT an immense love for my mother and a lot of Faith. I was reinforced the idea that even though I can try my hardest to make everything ok, the bottom line is that I’M NOT God to decide what was going to happen. I learned that I AM just a human being, who could only pray for the wellbeing of my mother, be it here on earth or up there in Heaven.
“I'm healing this broken heart”
My heart is broken because the bottom line is that I can no longer feel her warmth! But my broken heart has been slowly healing, because I’m slowly learning a different way of making her present in my life.
“No I won't give up”
I loved how this song ended. It reinforced my line of thought were even though the worst has happened, she is no longer here and there is absolutely nothing I can do to make her reappear, I won’t give up! I won’t give up loving her, I won’t give up making her part of my life, I won’t give up my faith, I won’t give up the hope that someday we’ll reunite!
When I first listened to this song I couldn't help it... I had to cry! This song perfectly describes what I've been feeling in the past few months. My mom was hospitalized January 3rd of this year and she went through a long, agonizing battle until her heart finally stopped beating on February 28th.
“When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise There's so much they hold”
Here it made me remember the moment when my mom’s beautiful dark eyes opened once again from an induced coma. I remember missing seeing them while she was in coma, and once they opened it felt like my whole life was starting over with a beautiful sunrise!
“And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul?”
Here it made me think of all the struggles she had to go through, and it reminded me of how she handled them. My mother was a very positive woman, always grateful for every day God had given her. Making the best out of the worst circumstances, and there is no doubt in my mind that she is right where she ought to be, in Heaven!
“I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up”
This was the attitude I had during the struggle in the hospital. I never gave up. Not when the doctors told me that she wouldn’t make it, not when they were hesitant of practicing CPR even though my mom had requested it. Never giving up, always looking up, giving her all of my love.
“And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find”
At this point I was almost about to stop the car because I couldn’t take it no more. This is exactly my attitude, I even posted something similar on Facebook a day after her passing. Now her soul needs her space to do some navigating, in the meantime I’ll be patiently waiting for her.
“Some [stars] even fall to the earth”
Days after my mom’s death, I would find myself looking at the dark sky, with all of its stars. And I would look at particular one and wonder if she became this star and if she could come down to earth to visit me. I later had a dream where she did.
“I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make”
This is what my mom thought me my whole life, and I applied it! I went to the hospital almost every day except for a couple of days where I became sick and didn’t want to make her get worse. I did everything I could, I helped as much as I could, I never walked away!
“I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not And who I am”
This was my lesson. I had to learn what I got, and what I’m not, AND WHO I AM. I GOT an immense love for my mother and a lot of Faith. I was reinforced the idea that even though I can try my hardest to make everything ok, the bottom line is that I’M NOT God to decide what was going to happen. I learned that I AM just a human being, who could only pray for the wellbeing of my mother, be it here on earth or up there in Heaven.
“I'm healing this broken heart”
My heart is broken because the bottom line is that I can no longer feel her warmth! But my broken heart has been slowly healing, because I’m slowly learning a different way of making her present in my life.
“No I won't give up”
I loved how this song ended. It reinforced my line of thought were even though the worst has happened, she is no longer here and there is absolutely nothing I can do to make her reappear, I won’t give up! I won’t give up loving her, I won’t give up making her part of my life, I won’t give up my faith, I won’t give up the hope that someday we’ll reunite!