Im living with the consequences of a huge mistake I made 6 years ago which saw me spend 6 months as a guest of Her Majesty. Whilst my parents have forgiven me, and I've by all accounts succeeded since this time, I've got a great job, and am doing really well... Not a day goes by that I don't think about what I did, and how bleeding stupid it was.
I remember saying at the time, that I would move on from that time, but I would never forgive myself. And to this day, I am unable to forgive myself. I have cut myself off from friends, despite them standing by me - because I am too ashamed of what I did.
I hope that some day, at some point in the future, I shall be able to bury my demons that I live with day to day, and forgive myself. It wasn't a serious crime, but it was stupid. As I say, I've moved on from Prison. Great job, new house, still got awesome friends and am doing fantastically well - my Mum the other month said she was so proud of me for getting back on my feet. The first time in my life she's said she was proud of me - it choked me up, and I cried.
I just wish that I could say I was proud of myself again.
Perhaps one day, someday I too will kneow the moment has arrived
for killing the past and coming back to life.
I live with it too my friend. I spent 5 straight years from my window watching. Today I am not the same man, and have come to appreciate that through those mistakes I made, I have grown. I am a husband, a father, and I am free to live in the shining sun.
I live with it too my friend. I spent 5 straight years from my window watching. Today I am not the same man, and have come to appreciate that through those mistakes I made, I have grown. I am a husband, a father, and I am free to live in the shining sun.
@joe1982_york Six months? Though a mere hour spent incarcerated is more than enough, your offence couldn\'t have been all that heinous. There are but two entities capable of unadulterated forgiveness; ourselves and God. Keep praying, my friend. \r\n\r\n:o)
@joe1982_york Six months? Though a mere hour spent incarcerated is more than enough, your offence couldn\'t have been all that heinous. There are but two entities capable of unadulterated forgiveness; ourselves and God. Keep praying, my friend. \r\n\r\n:o)
Im living with the consequences of a huge mistake I made 6 years ago which saw me spend 6 months as a guest of Her Majesty. Whilst my parents have forgiven me, and I've by all accounts succeeded since this time, I've got a great job, and am doing really well... Not a day goes by that I don't think about what I did, and how bleeding stupid it was.
I remember saying at the time, that I would move on from that time, but I would never forgive myself. And to this day, I am unable to forgive myself. I have cut myself off from friends, despite them standing by me - because I am too ashamed of what I did.
I hope that some day, at some point in the future, I shall be able to bury my demons that I live with day to day, and forgive myself. It wasn't a serious crime, but it was stupid. As I say, I've moved on from Prison. Great job, new house, still got awesome friends and am doing fantastically well - my Mum the other month said she was so proud of me for getting back on my feet. The first time in my life she's said she was proud of me - it choked me up, and I cried.
I just wish that I could say I was proud of myself again.
Perhaps one day, someday I too will kneow the moment has arrived for killing the past and coming back to life.
I pray for that day.
today is that day, I don't know you but after reading this and sensing your regret, for what it's worth, I am proud of you.
today is that day, I don't know you but after reading this and sensing your regret, for what it's worth, I am proud of you.
@joe1982_york
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@joe1982_york
I live with it too my friend. I spent 5 straight years from my window watching. Today I am not the same man, and have come to appreciate that through those mistakes I made, I have grown. I am a husband, a father, and I am free to live in the shining sun.
I live with it too my friend. I spent 5 straight years from my window watching. Today I am not the same man, and have come to appreciate that through those mistakes I made, I have grown. I am a husband, a father, and I am free to live in the shining sun.
@joe1982_york Six months? Though a mere hour spent incarcerated is more than enough, your offence couldn\'t have been all that heinous. There are but two entities capable of unadulterated forgiveness; ourselves and God. Keep praying, my friend. \r\n\r\n:o)
@joe1982_york Six months? Though a mere hour spent incarcerated is more than enough, your offence couldn\'t have been all that heinous. There are but two entities capable of unadulterated forgiveness; ourselves and God. Keep praying, my friend. \r\n\r\n:o)