Lyric discussion by dmerrill 

Those of us who are gay, who lived through the 1980s know what this song is about. We were dropping like flies, wasting away, getting all kinds of weird diseases like Kaposi's Sarcoma and PCP Pneumonia. We died, sometimes in horrible agonizing pain, sometimes slowly drowning from the fluid in our lungs. And nobody cared. Nobody gave a damn.

But even if you weren't there, you don't have to do a lot of deep thinking to understand the meaning of this song. The lyrics are perhaps too literal for comfort. We would start losing weight uncontrollably, losing maybe a few pounds, maybe more, every week. Literally "wasting away". It's not surprising that pretty soon we were "unrecognizable to [ourselves]" and our "clothes don't fit me no more". I was down to 112 pounds when the first treatment came out. I literally looked like I had been in a concentration camp.

Every week the paper would come out, and the weekly obituaries. Up to twelve pages in the Washington Blade in a single week. Every week, another friend got sick. Every week, another friend died. Every weekend was spent going to funerals and visiting hospitals. Our friends were literally "vanished and gone".

And indeed there was "no angel gonna greet me". Our churches threw us out. They were afraid to touch us, afraid to share a meal, for fear they would catch it. It was "just you and I my friend".

The movie Philadelphia was the first mainstream film to deal with the issue of AIDS. It even showed a bit of what Kaposi's Sarcoma looks like, although the filmmakers had to water it down a lot to get the film made. If they showed the true horror of AIDS, nobody would pay to see it. But this song captures the pain, the loss, and the loneliness that was AIDS for those of us who lived through it.

Follow this link to see an award winning photograph of Ken Meeks, a real victim of the plague, with Kaposi's Sarcoma. My partner had it in the 1980s. He had it on his skin, and also on his organs -- his kidneys, liver, and intestines. Kaposi's is a terribly painful way to die. He couldn't face his fate, and he killed himself.

nytimes.com/2011/05/31/health/31aids.html

Thanks for sharing your story, very heartfelt indeed.

Those of us who are not gay that were around in the 80's remember the pain of AIDS as well. The establishment scared to death and promoting fear. The YEARS lost when research could and should have been going full-tilt. Instead blaming the gay community. AIDS was first called GRIDS. An awful name that meant Gay-Related Immune Deficiency. Friends. Family members. It still pisses me off.

Thank you for putting this song in it historical perspective. Some of the remarks below make me doubt the awareness today's youth when it comes to this crisis. I was too young to be personally effected, beyond of being scared off unprotected sex. I was born in 1975 and raised in the Netherlands, which remained relatively gay-friendly through all of this. Thanks again for sharing you side.

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