I think that at the begining she is talking about how everyone is trying to find something to make them happy, to fulfill them, to make them belive they are a "better person".
But in all of that they are only thinking about themselves, aren't being aware of the crysis in the world, maybe even worse, being aware and don't care.( pigging out).
She clearly was that aware person, but got of with all of the things civilized world can offer (maybe changed for somebody), and then started seeing clear again. She never was that egoistic person, and she never could become one, because the reality bothers her too much.
ray killen wasn't far of.
I think that at the begining she is talking about how everyone is trying to find something to make them happy, to fulfill them, to make them belive they are a "better person".
But in all of that they are only thinking about themselves, aren't being aware of the crysis in the world, maybe even worse, being aware and don't care.( pigging out).
She clearly was that aware person, but got of with all of the things civilized world can offer (maybe changed for somebody), and then started seeing clear again. She never was that egoistic person, and she never could become one, because the reality bothers her too much.