my fave song by my fave band-hell, i even named my youngest Rivers! i'm not too sure what rivers was going for when he wrote it, but i DO know how it makes me feel....my dad was a raging alcoholic that was never around for he was too busy drinking, shooting pool, and whoring....when i was about ten, he remarried, cleaned up, found God, and then suddenly became too good for ME! 23 years later we barely talk, no matter how hard I try....so no matter what he was really trying to say, i know that every single time I hear this song (and i've been listening to it since i was 16) i swear he wrote it just for me....
Sorry to hear that your father never came back to the family, or more so you. Maybe to him the idea of getting involved with anything in his past gives him a too strong of an urge to pick up. But IMHO that is something that needs to be worked on with ones self if you want to live life fully and normally but w.o alcohol.
He also still may feel embarrassed and ashamed of how he treated you in your younger years.
A tough and touchy situation, but wish you luck! Maybe one day you two will be talking....
Sorry to hear that your father never came back to the family, or more so you. Maybe to him the idea of getting involved with anything in his past gives him a too strong of an urge to pick up. But IMHO that is something that needs to be worked on with ones self if you want to live life fully and normally but w.o alcohol.
He also still may feel embarrassed and ashamed of how he treated you in your younger years.
A tough and touchy situation, but wish you luck! Maybe one day you two will be talking.
my fave song by my fave band-hell, i even named my youngest Rivers! i'm not too sure what rivers was going for when he wrote it, but i DO know how it makes me feel....my dad was a raging alcoholic that was never around for he was too busy drinking, shooting pool, and whoring....when i was about ten, he remarried, cleaned up, found God, and then suddenly became too good for ME! 23 years later we barely talk, no matter how hard I try....so no matter what he was really trying to say, i know that every single time I hear this song (and i've been listening to it since i was 16) i swear he wrote it just for me....
Sorry to hear that your father never came back to the family, or more so you. Maybe to him the idea of getting involved with anything in his past gives him a too strong of an urge to pick up. But IMHO that is something that needs to be worked on with ones self if you want to live life fully and normally but w.o alcohol. He also still may feel embarrassed and ashamed of how he treated you in your younger years. A tough and touchy situation, but wish you luck! Maybe one day you two will be talking....
Sorry to hear that your father never came back to the family, or more so you. Maybe to him the idea of getting involved with anything in his past gives him a too strong of an urge to pick up. But IMHO that is something that needs to be worked on with ones self if you want to live life fully and normally but w.o alcohol. He also still may feel embarrassed and ashamed of how he treated you in your younger years. A tough and touchy situation, but wish you luck! Maybe one day you two will be talking.
btw.............This is from a recovering addict/alcoholic of 26 years,(now 6 years sober as of 5/15/12) ;) I lived it myself.....
btw.............This is from a recovering addict/alcoholic of 26 years,(now 6 years sober as of 5/15/12) ;) I lived it myself.....