once in a while when it's good
it'll feel like it should
and they're all still around
and you're still safe and sound
and you don't miss a thing so you cry when you're driving away in the dark.
singing stop this train i want to get off and go home again
i can't take this speed it's moving in
i know i can
but now i see we'll never stop this train
These lines in the song immediately make me think of my children.
They live with their Mum and I am now resinged to being a weekend Dad.
Difficult breakup 6 years ago etc, etc.
Each 2nd Sunday evening I take them back to their house and I act all brave and cool, dropping them off with a cheery smile etc, all false - but i dont want them seeing 'Dad' depressed or upset.
And I save the real feelings for the drive home, yes, sometimes crying, often just lost in the traffic.
When they come round to mine it's like being normal again, I get to be Dad again, fixing dinner, fixing bikes, fixing squabbles, I can see them , hear them , talk to them and they are safe again with me, -it feels like it should so to speak- and I dont miss them as they are right there....and then comes the inevitable drive back to their Mums and I drive home alone wishing it was different, knowing it cant be, and deep down wanting to get off the emotional train, but I stay on as it will take me to the next weekend when I see them....and we're all safe and sound once again.
@threetones Hi, I just made an account to reply to your comment because my heart went out for you. I cannot say I have been in your shoes but I just felt the need to reply to this because it was so heartfelt. I feel everyone now and then deserves to know they've been heard. I've been told suffering is for everyone, just the degree differs. Stay strong, I bet life will work out somehow.
@threetones Hi, I just made an account to reply to your comment because my heart went out for you. I cannot say I have been in your shoes but I just felt the need to reply to this because it was so heartfelt. I feel everyone now and then deserves to know they've been heard. I've been told suffering is for everyone, just the degree differs. Stay strong, I bet life will work out somehow.
once in a while when it's good it'll feel like it should and they're all still around and you're still safe and sound and you don't miss a thing so you cry when you're driving away in the dark.
singing stop this train i want to get off and go home again i can't take this speed it's moving in i know i can but now i see we'll never stop this train
These lines in the song immediately make me think of my children. They live with their Mum and I am now resinged to being a weekend Dad. Difficult breakup 6 years ago etc, etc. Each 2nd Sunday evening I take them back to their house and I act all brave and cool, dropping them off with a cheery smile etc, all false - but i dont want them seeing 'Dad' depressed or upset.
And I save the real feelings for the drive home, yes, sometimes crying, often just lost in the traffic.
When they come round to mine it's like being normal again, I get to be Dad again, fixing dinner, fixing bikes, fixing squabbles, I can see them , hear them , talk to them and they are safe again with me, -it feels like it should so to speak- and I dont miss them as they are right there....and then comes the inevitable drive back to their Mums and I drive home alone wishing it was different, knowing it cant be, and deep down wanting to get off the emotional train, but I stay on as it will take me to the next weekend when I see them....and we're all safe and sound once again.
@threetones Hi, I just made an account to reply to your comment because my heart went out for you. I cannot say I have been in your shoes but I just felt the need to reply to this because it was so heartfelt. I feel everyone now and then deserves to know they've been heard. I've been told suffering is for everyone, just the degree differs. Stay strong, I bet life will work out somehow.
@threetones Hi, I just made an account to reply to your comment because my heart went out for you. I cannot say I have been in your shoes but I just felt the need to reply to this because it was so heartfelt. I feel everyone now and then deserves to know they've been heard. I've been told suffering is for everyone, just the degree differs. Stay strong, I bet life will work out somehow.