What Hurts The Most

This song brings back so many memories for me...see my best friend who was a guy committed suicide our senior year and well i had this big crush on him and had all these feelings for him but never told him how i felt....he told me how he felt about me all the time...but i was so afraid of telling him my feeling...but a couple days after his death i heard this song and broke down...it was a really hard time for me considering he committed suicide 4 days before my 18th birthday...he was suppose to be at my house the night it happened but did show up...he ended up talking to his ex on the phone and well a little later killed himself...but anyways when i heard this song i thought of the last day i seen him it was in the lunch room at school and he was leaving to go to work...well he gave me a hug and told me hed call me later...but when i hear this song i think back to that day in the lunch room and wish i would have just told him everything...it really hurts that i didnt get to even tell him good bye...and i still love him to this day even though im getting married in 3 months...i just cant let him go...he was something special...was always there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on...