this song started playing wen i was at camp.... i had never heard it and yet i started crying like a baby... nobody knew wat was wrong and i never told them because i never figured it out either. then i realized why it made me so sad....death is scary and sad and when someone you love dies all you want is to believe they are still with you. but i wasnt like that wen my gramma died. i shut everything out and stayed by myself alot, mostly because i didnt want to face the truth: that gramma was gone. when i heard this song i started crying because i felt ashamed. ashamed that i shut everything out and pretend that i was okay and i didnt need help. if gramma had been watching me the whole time then what would she think i remembered all the time it had raines since her death...my b day the time i won my first horseshow, even when my mom and i made up for as huge fight. it really healed me, now thinking, even if i knew it wasnt likely, that gramma was right there with me the whole time.
this song started playing wen i was at camp.... i had never heard it and yet i started crying like a baby... nobody knew wat was wrong and i never told them because i never figured it out either. then i realized why it made me so sad....death is scary and sad and when someone you love dies all you want is to believe they are still with you. but i wasnt like that wen my gramma died. i shut everything out and stayed by myself alot, mostly because i didnt want to face the truth: that gramma was gone. when i heard this song i started crying because i felt ashamed. ashamed that i shut everything out and pretend that i was okay and i didnt need help. if gramma had been watching me the whole time then what would she think i remembered all the time it had raines since her death...my b day the time i won my first horseshow, even when my mom and i made up for as huge fight. it really healed me, now thinking, even if i knew it wasnt likely, that gramma was right there with me the whole time.