I know this song is about file-sharing, but when I first heard it, that never occurred to me. I was crying by the end of it, because even though I'm not a musician, it still feels really relevant to me.
As someone who has been in codependent relationships, I felt like the song also illustrated the position of being the "selfless" person in the couple. There's something that feels redeeming about it, because it allows you to disseminate your love/creative power/awareness. But it can also be destructive, because you fall into a place of false martyrdom where the other person becomes dependent upon you, and you gain a sense of importance from it.
"Everything is free now, that's what they say
Everything I ever done, gonna give it away
Someone hit the big score, they figured it out
They were gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay"
-Someone is using her, and her arguable "selflessness" allows her to get used, regardless of the other person's failure to reciprocate (or "pay" her). Even whether they're involved in her life or not, they realize she is still going to be a person with her shit straight, doing what she needs to be doing. Therefore, there's no harm done in milking her.
"Or I can get a straight job, I done it before
Never minded workin' hard, it's who I'm workin' for"
-This is where the narrator acknowledges that doing what she needs to be doing to help herself may not be as simple as it sounds. Whereas previously the song was content in concluding she was "gonna do it anyway", regardless of how the other party treated her, she now realizes that if other people are involved, their intentions and her response can affect the integrity of the whole action.
"Every day I wake up, hummin' a song
But I don't need to run around, I just stay at home
And sing a little love song, my lover, myself
If there's something that you wanna hear, you can sing it yourself"
-This is where I feel as though the narrator begins to realize that maybe her actions are not so selfless, and that in the end what matters is that everyone ultimately holds themselves accountable for their position. The narrator knows what she needs to be doing, which is making music, but also realizes that this need can be satiated without involving people who will take advantage of it. This may be the best route, because those opportunists will be forced to "sing it themselves"- pretty much the "tough love" concept. In the end, it's better for everyone.
What I think is so beautiful about this song is the contradictions expressed. At first, she seems accepting of the fact that people will take advantage of her, because she's internalized their notion that she's going to be making music anyway. It's kind of like when someone knows they can use you because you'll love them anyway. Although it's true you do love them, you also believe what they want you to believe- that not catering to them is proof you don't love them. Likewise, people who steal Gillian's music may feel as though a subsequent refusal on her part to distribute her music illustrates her lack of commitment to being a musician. Later in the song, however, she acknowledges how fucked up this idea is because in the end, "no ones gotta listen to the words in my head", and she owes nothing to no one. There is no need for guilt, therefore, and no need to sustain an unhealthy relationship. This shift is illustrated when she moves from singing "They were gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay" (the perspective of the fans towards the artist, rationalizing their behavior) to "And I'm gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay" (the perspective of the artist, seeing that her worth is related to her commitment in staying true to herself, rather than the perspective and opinions of her fans). Because in the end she admits that she makes music ultimately for herself (because she HAS to make music), she liberates herself from the destructive sense of obligation that both artists and enablers have, and subsequently allows herself to make the most conscientious, objective choices.
I know this song is about file-sharing, but when I first heard it, that never occurred to me. I was crying by the end of it, because even though I'm not a musician, it still feels really relevant to me.
As someone who has been in codependent relationships, I felt like the song also illustrated the position of being the "selfless" person in the couple. There's something that feels redeeming about it, because it allows you to disseminate your love/creative power/awareness. But it can also be destructive, because you fall into a place of false martyrdom where the other person becomes dependent upon you, and you gain a sense of importance from it.
"Everything is free now, that's what they say Everything I ever done, gonna give it away Someone hit the big score, they figured it out They were gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay" -Someone is using her, and her arguable "selflessness" allows her to get used, regardless of the other person's failure to reciprocate (or "pay" her). Even whether they're involved in her life or not, they realize she is still going to be a person with her shit straight, doing what she needs to be doing. Therefore, there's no harm done in milking her.
"Or I can get a straight job, I done it before Never minded workin' hard, it's who I'm workin' for" -This is where the narrator acknowledges that doing what she needs to be doing to help herself may not be as simple as it sounds. Whereas previously the song was content in concluding she was "gonna do it anyway", regardless of how the other party treated her, she now realizes that if other people are involved, their intentions and her response can affect the integrity of the whole action.
"Every day I wake up, hummin' a song But I don't need to run around, I just stay at home And sing a little love song, my lover, myself If there's something that you wanna hear, you can sing it yourself" -This is where I feel as though the narrator begins to realize that maybe her actions are not so selfless, and that in the end what matters is that everyone ultimately holds themselves accountable for their position. The narrator knows what she needs to be doing, which is making music, but also realizes that this need can be satiated without involving people who will take advantage of it. This may be the best route, because those opportunists will be forced to "sing it themselves"- pretty much the "tough love" concept. In the end, it's better for everyone.
What I think is so beautiful about this song is the contradictions expressed. At first, she seems accepting of the fact that people will take advantage of her, because she's internalized their notion that she's going to be making music anyway. It's kind of like when someone knows they can use you because you'll love them anyway. Although it's true you do love them, you also believe what they want you to believe- that not catering to them is proof you don't love them. Likewise, people who steal Gillian's music may feel as though a subsequent refusal on her part to distribute her music illustrates her lack of commitment to being a musician. Later in the song, however, she acknowledges how fucked up this idea is because in the end, "no ones gotta listen to the words in my head", and she owes nothing to no one. There is no need for guilt, therefore, and no need to sustain an unhealthy relationship. This shift is illustrated when she moves from singing "They were gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay" (the perspective of the fans towards the artist, rationalizing their behavior) to "And I'm gonna do it anyway, even if it doesn't pay" (the perspective of the artist, seeing that her worth is related to her commitment in staying true to herself, rather than the perspective and opinions of her fans). Because in the end she admits that she makes music ultimately for herself (because she HAS to make music), she liberates herself from the destructive sense of obligation that both artists and enablers have, and subsequently allows herself to make the most conscientious, objective choices.
YES. Blue Monday. Yes.
YES. Blue Monday. Yes.