I "dated" a junkie and this song really resonates with me... You can never truly date an addict... You will always come second in their life... Even when they're "in" a relationship with you, they're never really there. Sure, there were good times. But looking back, its more like a few smiles and laughs lost in a sea of depression. Those few fleeting moments when you can pretend to be "normal"; pretend not have problems; pretend not to wake up every morning so sick from withdrawals that you want to die... Have you ever seen someone detox from heroin? Waking up every morning wanting to die? Doing whatever it takes to just "not get sick"?
To me, "twilight" means being caught somewhere in between... the feeling that you know you're about to come down from being high... that you are happy in this moment, but you know it's going to end... Being caught between wanting to function like a normal person in a healthy, loving relationship but understanding that your addiction is your life... That deep down in your guy, no matter how many times you try, you won't be able to get clean. Heroin - it's my wife and it's my life...
This song remind me of the way my ex-boyfriend used to look at me in the morning when we woke up next to each other... Big, blue puppy dog eyes.. Something so sad and desperate... He never wanted to leave... He was safe and happy in that moment... with me... lying tangled in each others arms... holding on to me so tight, scared to be alone... holding out for as long as he could till he could no longer handle the withdrawal pains.. till the pain became intolerable...
Then, he would rise from the warmth and comfort of my cozy bed... to go face the cold reality of the world... to go score...
The illusion was crushed - he was a junkie. He could pretend we were happy. That our relationship was real. But it was just a distraction... a distraction from the cold, cruel truth: He no longer had control of his life. He could no longer function. His addiction had taken over his life and it was stronger than him.
You just used this as an excuse to rant on about some shitty boyfriend you had, well, boo hoo, now piss off.
You just used this as an excuse to rant on about some shitty boyfriend you had, well, boo hoo, now piss off.
I'm so sick of this, all of you people, go to the other songs of Elliott on this site, have a look at majority of the comments, 99% of people that have commented on Elliott's songs seem to think that ALL he EVER sings about is drugs and his addiction, YOU'RE FUCKING MORONS and I feel such pity on you, you clearly have no respect whatsoever for Elliott, and you have no idea the type of person he was, it disgusts me that you are even capable of hearing his music, you don't deserve it. Claiming even the most personal of his songs is about just drugs. Fuck, I do drugs too, copious amounts, for years, and I've written many songs, hundreds, but I can honestly say only about 4 or maybe 5 are just about drugs or their effects. You really think Elliott was sitting there shooting up, thinking of songs to write about shooting up? HE DIDN'T "LIKE" THAT HE WAS ADDICTED, he didn't advertise it all over the place, he wouldn't fucking sing about it in EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HIS SONGS.
Jim - you are a moron. This is clearly about him falling for another drug addict and he knows it won't work. I believe he wrote this after he got off heroin so maybe he was reflecting back to what it was like when he was using. Clearly about two addicts who "are already somebodies baby" (the drugs) -- so many references "i got no fight" (hes got to get high) "youre wonderful when its beautiful" when its beautiful is when he is high with her. come on man. use your head.
Jim - you are a moron. This is clearly about him falling for another drug addict and he knows it won't work. I believe he wrote this after he got off heroin so maybe he was reflecting back to what it was like when he was using. Clearly about two addicts who "are already somebodies baby" (the drugs) -- so many references "i got no fight" (hes got to get high) "youre wonderful when its beautiful" when its beautiful is when he is high with her. come on man. use your head.
I "dated" a junkie and this song really resonates with me... You can never truly date an addict... You will always come second in their life... Even when they're "in" a relationship with you, they're never really there. Sure, there were good times. But looking back, its more like a few smiles and laughs lost in a sea of depression. Those few fleeting moments when you can pretend to be "normal"; pretend not have problems; pretend not to wake up every morning so sick from withdrawals that you want to die... Have you ever seen someone detox from heroin? Waking up every morning wanting to die? Doing whatever it takes to just "not get sick"?
To me, "twilight" means being caught somewhere in between... the feeling that you know you're about to come down from being high... that you are happy in this moment, but you know it's going to end... Being caught between wanting to function like a normal person in a healthy, loving relationship but understanding that your addiction is your life... That deep down in your guy, no matter how many times you try, you won't be able to get clean. Heroin - it's my wife and it's my life...
This song remind me of the way my ex-boyfriend used to look at me in the morning when we woke up next to each other... Big, blue puppy dog eyes.. Something so sad and desperate... He never wanted to leave... He was safe and happy in that moment... with me... lying tangled in each others arms... holding on to me so tight, scared to be alone... holding out for as long as he could till he could no longer handle the withdrawal pains.. till the pain became intolerable...
Then, he would rise from the warmth and comfort of my cozy bed... to go face the cold reality of the world... to go score...
The illusion was crushed - he was a junkie. He could pretend we were happy. That our relationship was real. But it was just a distraction... a distraction from the cold, cruel truth: He no longer had control of his life. He could no longer function. His addiction had taken over his life and it was stronger than him.
You just used this as an excuse to rant on about some shitty boyfriend you had, well, boo hoo, now piss off.
You just used this as an excuse to rant on about some shitty boyfriend you had, well, boo hoo, now piss off.
I'm so sick of this, all of you people, go to the other songs of Elliott on this site, have a look at majority of the comments, 99% of people that have commented on Elliott's songs seem to think that ALL he EVER sings about is drugs and his addiction, YOU'RE FUCKING MORONS and I feel such pity on you, you clearly have no respect whatsoever for Elliott, and you have no idea the type of person he was, it disgusts me that you are even capable of hearing his music, you don't deserve it. Claiming even the most personal of his songs is about just drugs. Fuck, I do drugs too, copious amounts, for years, and I've written many songs, hundreds, but I can honestly say only about 4 or maybe 5 are just about drugs or their effects. You really think Elliott was sitting there shooting up, thinking of songs to write about shooting up? HE DIDN'T "LIKE" THAT HE WAS ADDICTED, he didn't advertise it all over the place, he wouldn't fucking sing about it in EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HIS SONGS.
Jim - you are a moron. This is clearly about him falling for another drug addict and he knows it won't work. I believe he wrote this after he got off heroin so maybe he was reflecting back to what it was like when he was using. Clearly about two addicts who "are already somebodies baby" (the drugs) -- so many references "i got no fight" (hes got to get high) "youre wonderful when its beautiful" when its beautiful is when he is high with her. come on man. use your head.
Jim - you are a moron. This is clearly about him falling for another drug addict and he knows it won't work. I believe he wrote this after he got off heroin so maybe he was reflecting back to what it was like when he was using. Clearly about two addicts who "are already somebodies baby" (the drugs) -- so many references "i got no fight" (hes got to get high) "youre wonderful when its beautiful" when its beautiful is when he is high with her. come on man. use your head.