I LOVE this song. I have gone through that exact phase of fantasizing about suicide... this song sounds soo optimistic to me.(It makes me feel better when I know I'm not alone) But the lyrics are about what he's thinking. It's like a story:
so he starts off by saying he's got a problem with his "violent side" which I think he is referring to his anger. He hates himself: "I've got a problem/ With me getting in the way"
"so i take my face and bash it into a mirror/ i wont have to see the pain" I picture him standing in his bathroom staring at himself at the mirror fantasizing about "bashing" his face into the mirror so he "wont have to see the pain" (on his face[I think he might have been crying])"the state is elevating as this hurt turns into hating" He is saying his "pain" (as in a deep sadness) is turning into anger.. and he is "anticipating all the fucked up feeling again" (probably all the evil things he wants to do to the ones that put him in this state)
"the hurt inside is fading" he is calming down from raging and now he is thinking more logically "this shit has gone too far" "all this time i've been waiting/ oh i can not grieve anymore/ for what's inside awaking/ im done, im not a whore" He was waiting for better days & he's tired of sitting around crying but now he has finally realized he doesnt have to take this sht from anyone.
"you've taken everything and/ oh i can not give anymore" He has wasted so much time and effort on these people and he is finally done with them because he is completely drained.
"My minds done with this" (I've made up my mind) So then he starts contemplating if giving up on them would benefit him: "okay i've got a question/ can i throw it all away/ take back what's mine"
so all the while he has probably been cutting himself then he starts fantasizing again about completely giving up(commiting suicide): "so i take my time/ riding the blade down the line/ each cut, closer to the vein" (I get a vibe off of this that he feels he is slowly going mad) but after contemplating this over and over again he decides: "I'm here to stay" (yay! happy ending; he doesn't kill himself)
I LOVE this song. I have gone through that exact phase of fantasizing about suicide... this song sounds soo optimistic to me.(It makes me feel better when I know I'm not alone) But the lyrics are about what he's thinking. It's like a story: so he starts off by saying he's got a problem with his "violent side" which I think he is referring to his anger. He hates himself: "I've got a problem/ With me getting in the way" "so i take my face and bash it into a mirror/ i wont have to see the pain" I picture him standing in his bathroom staring at himself at the mirror fantasizing about "bashing" his face into the mirror so he "wont have to see the pain" (on his face[I think he might have been crying])"the state is elevating as this hurt turns into hating" He is saying his "pain" (as in a deep sadness) is turning into anger.. and he is "anticipating all the fucked up feeling again" (probably all the evil things he wants to do to the ones that put him in this state) "the hurt inside is fading" he is calming down from raging and now he is thinking more logically "this shit has gone too far" "all this time i've been waiting/ oh i can not grieve anymore/ for what's inside awaking/ im done, im not a whore" He was waiting for better days & he's tired of sitting around crying but now he has finally realized he doesnt have to take this sht from anyone. "you've taken everything and/ oh i can not give anymore" He has wasted so much time and effort on these people and he is finally done with them because he is completely drained. "My minds done with this" (I've made up my mind) So then he starts contemplating if giving up on them would benefit him: "okay i've got a question/ can i throw it all away/ take back what's mine" so all the while he has probably been cutting himself then he starts fantasizing again about completely giving up(commiting suicide): "so i take my time/ riding the blade down the line/ each cut, closer to the vein" (I get a vibe off of this that he feels he is slowly going mad) but after contemplating this over and over again he decides: "I'm here to stay" (yay! happy ending; he doesn't kill himself)
you rock bro!!!!...
you rock bro!!!!...