This song to me right now, sings about the exact situation i am currently in.
My girlfriend has been out of the country for a month, during the first weeks she called every night, until one night 2 weeks ago she stopped, i tried calling a few times to make sure she is safe, but after i find out she is okay i start to wonder why she could not have at least texted or returned my calls until 4 in the morning. 2 days later she calls and tells me she wants to take a break from the relationship, which did not make any sense, we were already apart, i knew something was wrong.
The morning after i called a friend who was in the same country as she is in, and he told he saw my girlfriend getting chummy with a dude at a bar and found out that they have been hanging out alot, she never mentioned anything about this guy before, i guess i was right.
That night i found an old friend of mine and we had sex, i love my girlfriend and wanted to do something to match what she had done, partly out of spite, and mostly out of being able to see her again without feeling hurt, knowing i did the same while she was away. Every night after, i would call my girlfriend, and if she did not return my calls i would have sex with that girl, thinking about what she could be doing and i would match it on my side, kind of like a poker game, you raise, i call...
This went on for 2 weeks, and she called today to ask how i was doing, never mentioning that guy, i never mentioned what i did with that girl. I guess we both knew who we really wanted to come home to.
She told me she missed me and we booked a flight to meet somewhere we could get away together, i knew what she did, and i knew what i did, i love her and i do not want to let what happened get in our way, i slept with another woman so that i would not let what she did bother me. This left me empty, i had believed in more.
But now that we will actually be seeing each other soon, i am still hurt to know she started this cycle first, and i would have to face that hurt when i finally see her.
Many would probably disagree with what i am doing, and about whether this song applies to what i am going through, but today, this season, this song sing to me exactly what i am going through.
This song to me right now, sings about the exact situation i am currently in.
My girlfriend has been out of the country for a month, during the first weeks she called every night, until one night 2 weeks ago she stopped, i tried calling a few times to make sure she is safe, but after i find out she is okay i start to wonder why she could not have at least texted or returned my calls until 4 in the morning. 2 days later she calls and tells me she wants to take a break from the relationship, which did not make any sense, we were already apart, i knew something was wrong.
The morning after i called a friend who was in the same country as she is in, and he told he saw my girlfriend getting chummy with a dude at a bar and found out that they have been hanging out alot, she never mentioned anything about this guy before, i guess i was right.
That night i found an old friend of mine and we had sex, i love my girlfriend and wanted to do something to match what she had done, partly out of spite, and mostly out of being able to see her again without feeling hurt, knowing i did the same while she was away. Every night after, i would call my girlfriend, and if she did not return my calls i would have sex with that girl, thinking about what she could be doing and i would match it on my side, kind of like a poker game, you raise, i call...
This went on for 2 weeks, and she called today to ask how i was doing, never mentioning that guy, i never mentioned what i did with that girl. I guess we both knew who we really wanted to come home to.
She told me she missed me and we booked a flight to meet somewhere we could get away together, i knew what she did, and i knew what i did, i love her and i do not want to let what happened get in our way, i slept with another woman so that i would not let what she did bother me. This left me empty, i had believed in more.
But now that we will actually be seeing each other soon, i am still hurt to know she started this cycle first, and i would have to face that hurt when i finally see her.
Many would probably disagree with what i am doing, and about whether this song applies to what i am going through, but today, this season, this song sing to me exactly what i am going through.