Be My Escape

i saw some people saying this was about god and i was listening and not saying im right but now i think about the song being about suicide either that or god taking away his life just how i thought about it i was thinking of the line "'Cause I know to live you must give your life away" maybe as in to really live in his idea is being in heaven or some form of afterlife i guess to be able to really live as such he must give his life on earth away that one stodd out then:

I've given up on giving up slowly ----(dying slowly, wants to take matters into own hands)

this whole world that shares my fate ----(everything dies)

And this one last bullet you mention Is my one last shot at redemption ----(using a gun to take his life maybe hes depressed and to redeem himself into a worthy person thats the way to go)

And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key ----(for a long time he has been forming a figurative house of negative qualities and only god holds the key to get out)

And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me ----(even trying to escape this house could be the end of him because he wouldnt know who else to be so trying to escape could hurt him)

And even though there's no way of knowing where to go I promise I'm going because I got to get out of here ----(he might not know how to get there away from his life but he know he has to get out)

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake ----(maybe he wasnt even meant to be in the world his background growing up wasnt the best? or he didnt intend to live here he feels, he just became)

And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape ----(desperately asking for either god or suicide to be his escape)

I've given up on doing this alone now 'Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how You’ve told me the way, and now I'm trying to get there ----(ready to give his life to god)

And this life sentence that I'm serving I admit, that I'm every bit deserving ----(his life on earth is this long sentence he had to serve before moving on yet he feels he deserved it)

But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair ----(if all life was fair how would it be possible to see how truely amazing the good things are when it is fair or goes your way without having hardship or times when you feel it isnt fair)

’Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake ----(his idea of leaving his life on earth gives him a feeling of complacency, self satisfaction and he cant think otherwise)

I am a hostage to my own humanity Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made ----(being human you cant escape what humans have done he feels it is bad and he is apart of humanity therefore he has made a mess been bad and hes forced to live in it)

And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me But I can't ask you to give what you already gave ----(he wants god to help him maybe but cant ask for god to kill him, maybe he has to do that? because he was already given life and he cant ask god to give him another life again he just asks for help or guidence)

I fought you for so long I should have let you win Oh, how we regret those things we do And all I was trying to do was save my own skin Oh, but so were you So were you ----(a long time ago he may not have believed now he feels he should have let god win not he regrets that and maybe at the time his friends werent into religion so he just wanted to fit in and save his own skin. and god was too because he created humans out of his image or himself)

thats just what i think not saying im right just what it makes me think of