First off, I see alot of people who have almost got the right idea, but fall just a bit short.
In the old days, before modern medicine, if you ate something poisonous or were bullimic you drank soap water because it makes you vomit.
Regina is saying that the "mechanism" isn't what she wants to be in, and she's yearning to get out, but when she does dishes she can't help but fall into the old, horrible habit of making herself vomit. Anyone who has thrown-up knows the sensation of thinking you might die while you're gasping for breathe. Bullimia and depression go hand in hand, and the control you think you have when you can just make yourself sick and not gain any weight "I close my eyes and think that I have found me." This song is truly chilling.
First off, I see alot of people who have almost got the right idea, but fall just a bit short.
In the old days, before modern medicine, if you ate something poisonous or were bullimic you drank soap water because it makes you vomit.
Regina is saying that the "mechanism" isn't what she wants to be in, and she's yearning to get out, but when she does dishes she can't help but fall into the old, horrible habit of making herself vomit. Anyone who has thrown-up knows the sensation of thinking you might die while you're gasping for breathe. Bullimia and depression go hand in hand, and the control you think you have when you can just make yourself sick and not gain any weight "I close my eyes and think that I have found me." This song is truly chilling.