Honestly--this song seems to be about bipolar disorder (I was a psych major and suffer from bipolar myself and it makes a lot of sense).
I was alone/falling free/trying my best not to forget/what happened to us/what happened to me/
what happened as I let it slip.
This seems to refer to a manic episode. When bipolar 1 patients go off their meds, they don't want to go back on them and in the midst of mania they forget the reasons why they were on the meds in the first place or they choose not to. Which is precisely what this means to me. The narrator is alone because you often times isolate your friends and family when you're manic. You also feel free and happy because that's what mania feels like. And a manic individual may try to not to forget what he/she did to his/her self and his/her family members. But the overwhelming need to keep being manic overwhelms.
I was confused by the powers that be/forgetting names and faces/ Passers by, were looking at me/
as if they could erase it.
This talks about the confusion and upset a bp1 patient feels towards god. Why is this happening? Why is this wrong? Why should I try not to feel this? Also, this is the progression of the mania. First the narrator is trying not to forget and now he/she is forgetting or not caring about the things that stopped him/her from wanting to be manic. The passersby comment is also congruent with the bp1 because mania causes people to be rude, narcissistic and sometimes violent. They will go up to strangers and talk for hours about themselves. People might see a person like this and give him/her looks like who the hell is this person and why is this person continuing to talk and be such a jerk. The people probably literally want to escape and forget the person.
Baby...did you forget to take your meds?
When a group of people loves someone with this disorder and they see him/her losing it they all begin to ask the same question--"Did you forget to take your meds?" I can't tell you how many times when I've been really losing it that everyone I know asks about this.
I was alone, staring over the ledge/trying my best not to forget/all manner of joy, all manner of glee/and our one heroic pledge.
The next stage--depression. People with bipolar are VERY prone to suicidal ideation. This narrator is standing over the ledge trying to remember the mania, trying to remember the good times with everyone they know, trying to remember what matters. And the heroic pledge might refer to two things. When you are suicidal your counselor tends to make you sign a contract to not commit suicide. They make you promise and they make you sign it(not always--but sometimes--and they at least make you verbally pledge). Why is this heroic? Because to overcome suicidal thoughts takes a lot of courage. Because there is a we in this sentence it could also refer to taking that pledge with another person to work towards the narrator's mental health (it is often a group effort with the bp patient needing unyielding support). It could also be a personal pledge between two people in a relationship and making a pledge that they would stay together and the narrator would not kill themselves.
How it mattered to us, how it mattered to me/and the consequences./I was confused, by the birds and the bees/forgetting if i meant it.
Again this pledge and what it means to the two people in this relationship--and what the consequences of that pledge are (no committing suicide). Being confused by the birds and the bees could mean being confused about whether or not you actually are in love with the person who made you pledge, and forgetting whether or not you meant that pledge because of the confusion. When someone is suicidal they often attempt to logic out their reasons for suicide. "Well, I probably didn't really love you in the first place and it was possibly just about sex so the pledge is worthless and now I can jump off the ledge. " Because if you don't love the person you make the pledge with or aren't somehow connected to them, are you going to feel an obligation to go through with it?
And the sex and the drugs, and the complications.
When people are manic they tend to have lots and lots of sex. They also may take drugs when depressed in order to self medicate and also when they are manic in order to feel even higher than they already are. This causes so many complications, the entire experience of the disorder is extremely complicated.
Now, this song was said to be about someone who is psychotic. Psychosis is literally when someone loses contact with reality which is exactly what happens to BP1 patients and BP patients are spoken about as being, when in their worst state, as being psychotic.
Well, anyway, that's my two sense. But the actual transition from falling free to standing over the ledge indicates two different mind sets to me--which is the bi of bipolar essentially.
Honestly--this song seems to be about bipolar disorder (I was a psych major and suffer from bipolar myself and it makes a lot of sense).
I was alone/falling free/trying my best not to forget/what happened to us/what happened to me/ what happened as I let it slip.
This seems to refer to a manic episode. When bipolar 1 patients go off their meds, they don't want to go back on them and in the midst of mania they forget the reasons why they were on the meds in the first place or they choose not to. Which is precisely what this means to me. The narrator is alone because you often times isolate your friends and family when you're manic. You also feel free and happy because that's what mania feels like. And a manic individual may try to not to forget what he/she did to his/her self and his/her family members. But the overwhelming need to keep being manic overwhelms.
I was confused by the powers that be/forgetting names and faces/ Passers by, were looking at me/ as if they could erase it.
This talks about the confusion and upset a bp1 patient feels towards god. Why is this happening? Why is this wrong? Why should I try not to feel this? Also, this is the progression of the mania. First the narrator is trying not to forget and now he/she is forgetting or not caring about the things that stopped him/her from wanting to be manic. The passersby comment is also congruent with the bp1 because mania causes people to be rude, narcissistic and sometimes violent. They will go up to strangers and talk for hours about themselves. People might see a person like this and give him/her looks like who the hell is this person and why is this person continuing to talk and be such a jerk. The people probably literally want to escape and forget the person.
Baby...did you forget to take your meds?
When a group of people loves someone with this disorder and they see him/her losing it they all begin to ask the same question--"Did you forget to take your meds?" I can't tell you how many times when I've been really losing it that everyone I know asks about this.
I was alone, staring over the ledge/trying my best not to forget/all manner of joy, all manner of glee/and our one heroic pledge.
The next stage--depression. People with bipolar are VERY prone to suicidal ideation. This narrator is standing over the ledge trying to remember the mania, trying to remember the good times with everyone they know, trying to remember what matters. And the heroic pledge might refer to two things. When you are suicidal your counselor tends to make you sign a contract to not commit suicide. They make you promise and they make you sign it(not always--but sometimes--and they at least make you verbally pledge). Why is this heroic? Because to overcome suicidal thoughts takes a lot of courage. Because there is a we in this sentence it could also refer to taking that pledge with another person to work towards the narrator's mental health (it is often a group effort with the bp patient needing unyielding support). It could also be a personal pledge between two people in a relationship and making a pledge that they would stay together and the narrator would not kill themselves.
How it mattered to us, how it mattered to me/and the consequences./I was confused, by the birds and the bees/forgetting if i meant it.
Again this pledge and what it means to the two people in this relationship--and what the consequences of that pledge are (no committing suicide). Being confused by the birds and the bees could mean being confused about whether or not you actually are in love with the person who made you pledge, and forgetting whether or not you meant that pledge because of the confusion. When someone is suicidal they often attempt to logic out their reasons for suicide. "Well, I probably didn't really love you in the first place and it was possibly just about sex so the pledge is worthless and now I can jump off the ledge. " Because if you don't love the person you make the pledge with or aren't somehow connected to them, are you going to feel an obligation to go through with it?
And the sex and the drugs, and the complications.
When people are manic they tend to have lots and lots of sex. They also may take drugs when depressed in order to self medicate and also when they are manic in order to feel even higher than they already are. This causes so many complications, the entire experience of the disorder is extremely complicated.
Now, this song was said to be about someone who is psychotic. Psychosis is literally when someone loses contact with reality which is exactly what happens to BP1 patients and BP patients are spoken about as being, when in their worst state, as being psychotic.
Well, anyway, that's my two sense. But the actual transition from falling free to standing over the ledge indicates two different mind sets to me--which is the bi of bipolar essentially.