this is a song talking about being at the absolute bottm of depression. its something that unless you have been there or watched someone there you never really understand
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
(I feel so dead and empty, I was just wondering if I still had any feeling)
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
(everything seems surreal, but at least I know the pain is real)
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
(I’ve done drugs to deaden my senses for so long its familiar, normal)
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
(I try to make the memories and pain go away, but it won’t go)
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
(you are the closest to me, I adore you, help me)
everyone I know
goes away in the end
( I drive everyone away from me)
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
(if you want me you can take it, but I’m worthless)
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
(I will do to you what I’ve done to everyone else, drive you away with my self loathing)
I wear this crown of shit
(my crowning achievement in life is that I have achieved nothing)
upon my liar's chair
( I don’t know the truth anymore so it all must be lies)
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
(I try but I cant keep my head together)
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
( i don’t remember how to feel its been so long since I have)
you are someone else
(you have changed)
I am still right here
(I have not)
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
(if I could do it all over again. Away from all the people I know and love I wouldn’t lose who I was, I’d find a way to show them I really do care. It wouldn’t have to end this way)
I always thought of "everyone I know goes away in the end" being more of the fact that in death they no longer exist, depending on your view of what life and reality is.
I always thought of "everyone I know goes away in the end" being more of the fact that in death they no longer exist, depending on your view of what life and reality is.
this is a song talking about being at the absolute bottm of depression. its something that unless you have been there or watched someone there you never really understand
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel (I feel so dead and empty, I was just wondering if I still had any feeling) I focus on the pain the only thing that's real (everything seems surreal, but at least I know the pain is real) the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting (I’ve done drugs to deaden my senses for so long its familiar, normal) try to kill it all away but I remember everything (I try to make the memories and pain go away, but it won’t go)
what have I become? my sweetest friend (you are the closest to me, I adore you, help me) everyone I know goes away in the end ( I drive everyone away from me)
you could have it all my empire of dirt (if you want me you can take it, but I’m worthless) I will let you down I will make you hurt (I will do to you what I’ve done to everyone else, drive you away with my self loathing)
I wear this crown of shit (my crowning achievement in life is that I have achieved nothing) upon my liar's chair ( I don’t know the truth anymore so it all must be lies) full of broken thoughts I cannot repair (I try but I cant keep my head together) beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear ( i don’t remember how to feel its been so long since I have) you are someone else (you have changed) I am still right here (I have not)
if I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way (if I could do it all over again. Away from all the people I know and love I wouldn’t lose who I was, I’d find a way to show them I really do care. It wouldn’t have to end this way)
being depressed and harming myself, that's exactly how I interpret this song.
being depressed and harming myself, that's exactly how I interpret this song.
I like the line by line interpretation.
I like the line by line interpretation.
I always thought of "everyone I know goes away in the end" being more of the fact that in death they no longer exist, depending on your view of what life and reality is.
I always thought of "everyone I know goes away in the end" being more of the fact that in death they no longer exist, depending on your view of what life and reality is.
@demonicaangel This is the most accurate interpretation I’ve read yet.
@demonicaangel This is the most accurate interpretation I’ve read yet.
@demonicaangel This is it. Very accurate.
@demonicaangel This is it. Very accurate.