I can really relate to this now - I really like this guy in a way that I just can't get enough of his attention - but I don't really know him and he doesn't make it easy. I've probably scared him off if I'm honest, but I hope.
Anyway, we've both had some problems these last few weeks but I've been so worried about his without even knowing exactly what it was he was worried about.
"I need to taste the warming glow,
of your medicating hands
I know I'm ready for your love,
I just don't understand it"
Just like the person who perspective this is written from, I needed the comfort, love and support of him being there to help me though my problems. I don't understand him, or what it is about him that makes me love him, but I feel I need him - and a hug and the chance to cry on his shoulder is what most appeals right now.
"So now I'm telling you the reason I'm all messed up
Just have to look me in the eyes and I fall apart
Please let me hold you 'til I know we are both through this
I couldn't lead another day without you here in my arms"
Not knowing what the exact problem was driving me crazy, and I was at the point where I forgot to care about my own problems because I was worrying about his. I wanted to be there for him, and for him to be there for me but when you are 200 or so miles away it isn't easy. I would get frustrated by the lack of communication, yet when I did get the next message - for a while - all that frustration is forgotten while I "fall apart" after getting the attention that I craved.
"You look so fragile, I could break,
But I try to hold myself
together for the both of us,
but in truth I'm just as scared
I just wanna watch you sleep,
as you lie here beside me
So close your eyes, I'll guard the door"
I just want to look after him, or at least to know that he is happy whatever he chooses to do in his life (even if that means I just stay a friend). It really hurts me to think he won't open up to me when all I want to do is to help him... but there isn't much I can do to help unless I know how he feels. But I try to hold myself together and put my own feelings aside - trying to convince myself that I will be happy when I can help make him happy...
Truth is, I really do want him to be happy - but I'm scared that he will choose not to be with me... I just want to watch him sleep again and to take care of him.
I can really relate to this now - I really like this guy in a way that I just can't get enough of his attention - but I don't really know him and he doesn't make it easy. I've probably scared him off if I'm honest, but I hope.
Anyway, we've both had some problems these last few weeks but I've been so worried about his without even knowing exactly what it was he was worried about.
"I need to taste the warming glow, of your medicating hands I know I'm ready for your love, I just don't understand it"
Just like the person who perspective this is written from, I needed the comfort, love and support of him being there to help me though my problems. I don't understand him, or what it is about him that makes me love him, but I feel I need him - and a hug and the chance to cry on his shoulder is what most appeals right now.
"So now I'm telling you the reason I'm all messed up Just have to look me in the eyes and I fall apart Please let me hold you 'til I know we are both through this I couldn't lead another day without you here in my arms"
Not knowing what the exact problem was driving me crazy, and I was at the point where I forgot to care about my own problems because I was worrying about his. I wanted to be there for him, and for him to be there for me but when you are 200 or so miles away it isn't easy. I would get frustrated by the lack of communication, yet when I did get the next message - for a while - all that frustration is forgotten while I "fall apart" after getting the attention that I craved.
"You look so fragile, I could break, But I try to hold myself together for the both of us, but in truth I'm just as scared I just wanna watch you sleep, as you lie here beside me So close your eyes, I'll guard the door"
I just want to look after him, or at least to know that he is happy whatever he chooses to do in his life (even if that means I just stay a friend). It really hurts me to think he won't open up to me when all I want to do is to help him... but there isn't much I can do to help unless I know how he feels. But I try to hold myself together and put my own feelings aside - trying to convince myself that I will be happy when I can help make him happy...
Truth is, I really do want him to be happy - but I'm scared that he will choose not to be with me... I just want to watch him sleep again and to take care of him.
Time will tell...