maybe people looked to him (spencer) for answers because he always seemed to be so in tune with his life. but he's letting them know, "i'm just leading you further from what you need" possibly with his addictions and everything.
and at the end he's asking himself, "should i keep on like this? not only have i hurt myself, but also others."
and then he asks God to forgive him, which shows that he wants to be given another chance.
maybe people looked to him (spencer) for answers because he always seemed to be so in tune with his life. but he's letting them know, "i'm just leading you further from what you need" possibly with his addictions and everything. and at the end he's asking himself, "should i keep on like this? not only have i hurt myself, but also others." and then he asks God to forgive him, which shows that he wants to be given another chance.