I think this song is about the inner struggle one has with the anxiety that accompanies depression and how it ultimately can spiral further down. The lyrics allude to a "situation" - one where this person feels bound by their own fear and/or sadness. He/she cannot understand why they just can't "get it together & set aside these feelings" so to speak, and that deeply saddens them further. Become aware of their growing sadness creates further uneasiness for themselves, leaving them to feel helpless.
"I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason"
(Depression can intensify quickly and seeming without justification)
"And I would rather reveal myself than my situation"
(This person longs to feel normal again, but fears he/she will unveil their deep melancholia for which they feel ashamed of because they cannot control it)
Now and then I consider, my hesitation
(That deep melancholia prohibits them from feeling confident in taking action. Knowing this, they dwell on it, which furthers the depression)
"I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence"
(A questioning of one's self and actions or lack there of. Why does he/she live as they do, attempting to masking their inner pain)
"And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express, my situation"
(a hint towards suicide - A fatal attempt to release themselves of this paining depression. They now look to reveal their feelings)
Here, the music changes, and the vocal style changes from a low somber tone during the first two verses to shouts - This person is now trying to explain how this feels:
"There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction"
(This sadness didn't start out this intense. It was the dwelling guilt over feeling this way and inability to shake it that has made it what it has become. Until they allow themselves to feel happy, it won't end)
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
(They are lost in their sorrow and the anxiety has deterred them from taking action)
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason
(He is overcome & feels it is hopeless)
I particularly like the last line of the 3rd verse and how it is carried over into the chorus. It's a cathartic cry that fits the mood of the song perfectly. The chorus is equally great, explaining how this depression has caused them to hide out of fear and shame. A great song, and seemingly the polar opposite to the optimistic attitude of "Fly from the Inside".
I think this song is about the inner struggle one has with the anxiety that accompanies depression and how it ultimately can spiral further down. The lyrics allude to a "situation" - one where this person feels bound by their own fear and/or sadness. He/she cannot understand why they just can't "get it together & set aside these feelings" so to speak, and that deeply saddens them further. Become aware of their growing sadness creates further uneasiness for themselves, leaving them to feel helpless.
"I feel like there is no need for conversation Some questions are better left without a reason" (Depression can intensify quickly and seeming without justification)
"And I would rather reveal myself than my situation" (This person longs to feel normal again, but fears he/she will unveil their deep melancholia for which they feel ashamed of because they cannot control it)
Now and then I consider, my hesitation (That deep melancholia prohibits them from feeling confident in taking action. Knowing this, they dwell on it, which furthers the depression)
"I wonder if the things I did were just to be different To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence" (A questioning of one's self and actions or lack there of. Why does he/she live as they do, attempting to masking their inner pain)
"And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation Here and now I'll express, my situation" (a hint towards suicide - A fatal attempt to release themselves of this paining depression. They now look to reveal their feelings)
Here, the music changes, and the vocal style changes from a low somber tone during the first two verses to shouts - This person is now trying to explain how this feels:
"There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right Such a cruel contradiction" (This sadness didn't start out this intense. It was the dwelling guilt over feeling this way and inability to shake it that has made it what it has become. Until they allow themselves to feel happy, it won't end)
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define I'm born to indecision (They are lost in their sorrow and the anxiety has deterred them from taking action)
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose With no particular rhyme or reason (He is overcome & feels it is hopeless)
I particularly like the last line of the 3rd verse and how it is carried over into the chorus. It's a cathartic cry that fits the mood of the song perfectly. The chorus is equally great, explaining how this depression has caused them to hide out of fear and shame. A great song, and seemingly the polar opposite to the optimistic attitude of "Fly from the Inside".