I think Bridsa has it right.
"i must have blown a fuse or something
cause it was so dark in my mind
she came up to me with the sweetest face
and she was holding a light of some kind
and i still think of you as my boyfriend
i don't think this is the end of the world
but i think maybe you should follow my example
and go meet yourself a really nice girl"
She knew something was off but couldn't put her finger on it, then she meets a girl who she's attracted to and goes, "Oh, so that's the part that was missing." She doesn't seem to accept it yet because it doesn't have to be the end of the world and she still has her boyfriend. She feels guilty for having the affair and doesn't feel worthy of his complete love and devotion for her.
She says that she's been intentionally bad at lying and hopes not to learn to be a better liar. She doesn't want to be able to cheat on someone and doesn't want to hone her cheating skills.
" yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind
and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind"
She'd rather feel guilty "pretend" it's not happening rather than fully confront confront her feelings. She knows that when she finally does though, that there will be some good that comes from it.
I think Bridsa has it right. "i must have blown a fuse or something cause it was so dark in my mind she came up to me with the sweetest face and she was holding a light of some kind and i still think of you as my boyfriend i don't think this is the end of the world but i think maybe you should follow my example and go meet yourself a really nice girl" She knew something was off but couldn't put her finger on it, then she meets a girl who she's attracted to and goes, "Oh, so that's the part that was missing." She doesn't seem to accept it yet because it doesn't have to be the end of the world and she still has her boyfriend. She feels guilty for having the affair and doesn't feel worthy of his complete love and devotion for her. She says that she's been intentionally bad at lying and hopes not to learn to be a better liar. She doesn't want to be able to cheat on someone and doesn't want to hone her cheating skills. " yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind" She'd rather feel guilty "pretend" it's not happening rather than fully confront confront her feelings. She knows that when she finally does though, that there will be some good that comes from it.