Miss Adu has said in a rare interview with TMU that the song, and much of her album Promise, is about heroin - the way it makes you feel, and the things you do for it when you're addicted. Apparently, she once let a dealer "do things" for a ten pound boot and wrote this song afterwards in an emotional trough. She talked about the bitter-sweet feelings smack gave her - the drive to do the dirty things she'd always fantasised about in one way or another, and yet after she'd done them, how she didn't feel good enough for the drug because of the way she'd lowered herself while under it's divine spell. She referred to it as basking in the Good Lord's perfect light, and then realising He (God/Heroin) could see all her blemishes so clearly when she was illuminated. Essentially here, she was scared of not being able to get high any more, either through tolerance or just being unable to source her skag. She said the thought terrified her, but none-the-less she couldn't stop riding the horse until she was heavily pregnant with her daughter.
Miss Adu has said in a rare interview with TMU that the song, and much of her album Promise, is about heroin - the way it makes you feel, and the things you do for it when you're addicted. Apparently, she once let a dealer "do things" for a ten pound boot and wrote this song afterwards in an emotional trough. She talked about the bitter-sweet feelings smack gave her - the drive to do the dirty things she'd always fantasised about in one way or another, and yet after she'd done them, how she didn't feel good enough for the drug because of the way she'd lowered herself while under it's divine spell. She referred to it as basking in the Good Lord's perfect light, and then realising He (God/Heroin) could see all her blemishes so clearly when she was illuminated. Essentially here, she was scared of not being able to get high any more, either through tolerance or just being unable to source her skag. She said the thought terrified her, but none-the-less she couldn't stop riding the horse until she was heavily pregnant with her daughter.