what i got out of it is that she's in love with someone and she's trying to tell herself that it will work out. when in reality its not going to happen and he's not worth it. so she's asking herself "what the fuck was i thinking?," meaning why did she ever fall for him and why did she ever think things could work out.
when she says "love grows in me like a tumor / love plows through me like a dozer / love tears me up like a demon" shes saying she doesnt want to be in love because she knows he wont return the feelings. but in the back of her mind shes hoping. "you know that i've got what you want"
i love this song.
what i got out of it is that she's in love with someone and she's trying to tell herself that it will work out. when in reality its not going to happen and he's not worth it. so she's asking herself "what the fuck was i thinking?," meaning why did she ever fall for him and why did she ever think things could work out.
when she says "love grows in me like a tumor / love plows through me like a dozer / love tears me up like a demon" shes saying she doesnt want to be in love because she knows he wont return the feelings. but in the back of her mind shes hoping. "you know that i've got what you want"