Today, as I was driving home from work, I heard this song on the radio. It immediately reminded me of my brother who died unexpectedly, tragically, and way before his time. I almost felt that he was speaking to me through this song. He can't see my darkness anymore. And, though it has been almost 3 years since his death---his pictures do almost seem black and white. When he died, it was almost as if he was "frozen on the ladder" of his life. He still had a great deal of living left to do. And there are times like today--when I feel that I wasn't there for him---that I let the sun go down on him--as he lay dying in his apartment all alone with no one there, except a few friends, who just let him die. Elton John may well have been talking about a lost lover, but for me this song---speaks of losing a little brother to death long before his time---and my powerlessness in stopping the sun from going down on him......
@keebee That was a intensely beautiful thing to say. What can you do? Lost my nephew this year to depression. I know the feeling. It's so easy to blame ourselves when things like this happen. "Why couldn't have I been there? Maybe if I knew what was going on I could have stopped him. If only I would have known... Why didn't I know?" These are questions that will come when we lose anyone in this way. Know that you are not to blame. I don't know the details of your brother's death, but I don't think it's fair to...
@keebee That was a intensely beautiful thing to say. What can you do? Lost my nephew this year to depression. I know the feeling. It's so easy to blame ourselves when things like this happen. "Why couldn't have I been there? Maybe if I knew what was going on I could have stopped him. If only I would have known... Why didn't I know?" These are questions that will come when we lose anyone in this way. Know that you are not to blame. I don't know the details of your brother's death, but I don't think it's fair to blame yourself- even though it's pretty much human nature. The fact that you are grieving in this way proves that you are a good person.
Today, as I was driving home from work, I heard this song on the radio. It immediately reminded me of my brother who died unexpectedly, tragically, and way before his time. I almost felt that he was speaking to me through this song. He can't see my darkness anymore. And, though it has been almost 3 years since his death---his pictures do almost seem black and white. When he died, it was almost as if he was "frozen on the ladder" of his life. He still had a great deal of living left to do. And there are times like today--when I feel that I wasn't there for him---that I let the sun go down on him--as he lay dying in his apartment all alone with no one there, except a few friends, who just let him die. Elton John may well have been talking about a lost lover, but for me this song---speaks of losing a little brother to death long before his time---and my powerlessness in stopping the sun from going down on him......
@keebee That was a intensely beautiful thing to say. What can you do? Lost my nephew this year to depression. I know the feeling. It's so easy to blame ourselves when things like this happen. "Why couldn't have I been there? Maybe if I knew what was going on I could have stopped him. If only I would have known... Why didn't I know?" These are questions that will come when we lose anyone in this way. Know that you are not to blame. I don't know the details of your brother's death, but I don't think it's fair to...
@keebee That was a intensely beautiful thing to say. What can you do? Lost my nephew this year to depression. I know the feeling. It's so easy to blame ourselves when things like this happen. "Why couldn't have I been there? Maybe if I knew what was going on I could have stopped him. If only I would have known... Why didn't I know?" These are questions that will come when we lose anyone in this way. Know that you are not to blame. I don't know the details of your brother's death, but I don't think it's fair to blame yourself- even though it's pretty much human nature. The fact that you are grieving in this way proves that you are a good person.
@keebee ditto and still reminds me of my brother when i hear this song RIP Paul Feb 2007
@keebee ditto and still reminds me of my brother when i hear this song RIP Paul Feb 2007