I know people have placed the actual meaning of the song, but to me 'Angel' will always relate to self injury. I'm fairly certain that's not why she wrote it, but that's what it will always mean to me.
"there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day"
Most people who self injure deal with at least one form of depression. Others have already made the depression connections to these lines, so I won't bother saying more here.
"I need some distraction"
Could be distraction from the urges, or could be distraction from the pain - thus the act.
"oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins"
So many times I've heard that line and recalled times I've self injured to escape from my past...
"you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie"
Self harming can help me to slide away from reality somewhat. Sometimes it'll make a person dissociate and lose track of everything.
"and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack"
To me these lines are about the pain that continues to grow while a self injurer continues the "I'm fine" lies, and the lies about how their injuries/scars occured.
"it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees"
Once you've done it once, you can tell yourself it's okay to do it one more time. Nobody will notice, it will make it no harder to quit... any number of little lies that you tell yourself to feel better about doing it again. It's easier to keep self harming than to quit.
I know people have placed the actual meaning of the song, but to me 'Angel' will always relate to self injury. I'm fairly certain that's not why she wrote it, but that's what it will always mean to me.
"there's always one reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day" Most people who self injure deal with at least one form of depression. Others have already made the depression connections to these lines, so I won't bother saying more here.
"I need some distraction" Could be distraction from the urges, or could be distraction from the pain - thus the act.
"oh beautiful release memory seeps from my veins" So many times I've heard that line and recalled times I've self injured to escape from my past...
"you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie" Self harming can help me to slide away from reality somewhat. Sometimes it'll make a person dissociate and lose track of everything.
"and the storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lie that you make up for all that you lack" To me these lines are about the pain that continues to grow while a self injurer continues the "I'm fine" lies, and the lies about how their injuries/scars occured.
"it don't make no difference escaping one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees"
Once you've done it once, you can tell yourself it's okay to do it one more time. Nobody will notice, it will make it no harder to quit... any number of little lies that you tell yourself to feel better about doing it again. It's easier to keep self harming than to quit.