I got the feeling this is about her rape experience. She escaped with her life ("I'm still alive") but she's still traumatized by either nightmares or flashbacks, therefore she needs the "velvet" when she's coming down.
I got the feeling this is about her rape experience. She escaped with her life ("I'm still alive") but she's still traumatized by either nightmares or flashbacks, therefore she needs the "velvet" when she's coming down.