I think this song might be about somone planning their own suicide. She's set herself a deadline to do it, and she's counting down the hours to her own life.
"I'm not messing" is her saying that she isn't kidding around about it this time, and that she's actually going through with it.
"I can't believe how I've been wasting my time" means that she doesn't understand what the point is of her living any more. She's given up hope.
"I need your blessing and your promise to live free" is kind of her suicide note, saying "It's not your fault... please don't blame yourself."
I think this song might be about somone planning their own suicide. She's set herself a deadline to do it, and she's counting down the hours to her own life.
"I'm not messing" is her saying that she isn't kidding around about it this time, and that she's actually going through with it.
"I can't believe how I've been wasting my time" means that she doesn't understand what the point is of her living any more. She's given up hope.
"I need your blessing and your promise to live free" is kind of her suicide note, saying "It's not your fault... please don't blame yourself."