Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
And take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Walking Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
And take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I hate you

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How'd it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million pretty souls
But I couldn't kill you

I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you made me die inside



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Jay Gordon Of Orgy - Slept So Long song meanings
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    General Comment:I think this song is about going on in your life without any real motivations or goals and just moving through it and then this amazing person comes into your situation and upsets your routine and changes everything. And while part of you is upset about them, you also can't be without them and you realize just what you were missing before you knew them, "I've slept so long without you."
    Flag Enjoythe7on May 07, 2013   Link
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    General Comment:Oops, I'm sorry. I've made a mistake, I probably made more than one though. The "walking...waiting" part, the waiting part isn't him sleeping to find some sort of death, but instead waiting thoughout eternally.
    Flag StarryEyes18on November 22, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:I know that some people believe that Lestat is singing about Marius or Akasha, but I believe this song is about Jesse. It's okay if you don't agree with me but this is my opinion. It's okay if you don't believe me but at least read why I think it's about Jesse.

    "Walking...Waiting...
    Alone without a care..."
    I think that the "waiting" part is when he tries to sleep to find some sort of death. "Alone without a care" He says that Marius taught him that he only has himself, that he's alone forever. He's learned to deal with loneliness, and he doesn't care anymore.

    "Hoping...Hating...
    Things I can't bear..."
    He hopes to see her again, and he hates that because he's not used to it.

    "Do you think it's cool to walk right up
    To take my life and f... it up"
    When he means "take my life" he doesn't mean killing him. He means that she came into his life and messed it up.

    "I see hell in your eyes"
    I agree with kelly1991, that Lestat can't look at her the same anymore since she says that she wants to be a vampire, too.

    "Touching you makes me feel alive"
    When he touches her, the loneliness is gone, and he feels better.

    "Touching you makes me die inside"
    Also when he touches her, he knows it's wrong because she's human, and he doesn't want her to change.

    "I hate you"
    He hates her because she's making him feel all of these emotions, and he's not used ot it.

    "I've slept so long without you"
    Some time when Marius left, he went to sleep for 200 yrs. When she comes into his life, he realizes 'wow, slept for so long...and she wasn't with me.' And when you think about it, he's kinda saying that he loves her but not really using those exact words.

    "It's tearing me apart, too"
    Again, he's not used to feeling all of these emotions, and he's probably confused, too.

    "How did it get this far?
    Playing games with this old heart"
    She made him fall in love with her by the way she knows the real him (his past, his true feelings, and what he yearns). She has done so many things to his heart, to his emotions, that he questions himself 'how did this happen?'

    "I've killed a million petty souls
    But I coudn't kill you"
    First of all, whoever wrote the lyrics to this song hasn't typed it correctly. It's "petty" not "pretty." And those who think it's about Marius or Akasha, please think about this line, "I've killed a million petty souls". Souls as in humans. The last time I checked, vampires don't have souls. I don't mean to sound rude, but that's what I believe. "But I couldn't kill you" This pretty much says what it means. He couldn't kill her because he loves her.

    Some of these are probably aren't correct but this is what I think is what it means (or close enough to it). Again, it's okay if you still believe it's about Marius or Akasha, that's your opinion. But this is mine. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope it clears the questions the people might be asking about what the song is about.
    Flag StarryEyes18on November 07, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:i think he feels that he hates this person but can't control how he strongly desires for them.
    Flag butterflie2on July 11, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:this is the best fucking song on the soundtrack
    Flag andthepartyragedonon June 29, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:F*uck! SOORRYYY - I didn't mean to post that three freakin' times!! I didn't realize the post went to a next page so I kept reposting. My bad. I wish I could delete those extra posts. The reason why i even was posting that again was that I realized, the reply to my own original comment does not show unless it's clicked on and I wanted my continuing second comment to show the same as the original.

    Once again, forgive me the triple post! :(
    Flag bendaimmortalon November 20, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:Oh, and I forgot to mention - there just can't be anything in this song's lyrics about or for Jesse. because this song - again - is supposeed to be on The Vampire Lestat's first album and thus written long before Lestat even knew jesse exsisted.

    And when it comes to if there's anything in the meaning for Akasha - I can't see it that way. These lyrics are so full of hate, bitterness and yet with touch of sincere love that it's about impossible to have anything to do with someone Lestat doesn't even know or hasn't really even met.

    This song has so personal and emotion-filled sound that I really, as I said, can not see the meaning to be about anyone but Marius - his teacher, friend and father who abandoned him and never reacted to the countless times he called out for him ever after.

    Oh, and the "touching you makes me die inside", I figured doesn't have to be physical dying after all. Can't believe I didn't think of it when I wrote that earlier opinion of mine. Of course it probably means that as touching Marius (hence, drinking his blood) made him into a campire, and he then learnt he should never again sociallize with mortals or do much anything he enjoyed before he beame a vampire... thus touching Marius made him die inside. His spirit was tied to the vampire sociaties rules. Or rather tried to be tied... ;D

    But as I said, for my opinion this song is simply and completely from Lestat to Marius. As Jesse became after this song was written and Akasha is too much a stranger for the personal, strong tone of the song and well... Louis? Claudia? I don't think he'd ever say he hates Louis and Claudia's dead and living without her most likely would not tear him apart. :D His journal was all about Marius, he's been calling for Marius many times, he noticed Jesse first time because she mentioned Marius's name, he wanted to know if she knew Marius. Did the first song in his concert just *happen* to be this Slept So Long, after he had Marius back in his life? I don't think so - I see the starting song very much deliberate. To say "I'm bitter and I hate you, you just think about that when you see me torn apart by those vampires" - but Marius surprised him and came to protect him. Most likely partly because of that provoke with the song.

    Marius, marius, Maaa-rii-uus I think was so very clearly one of the very deepest and top thoughts in his mind during the time of the movie's events.
    Flag bendaimmortalon November 20, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:Oh, and I forgot to mention - there just can't be anything in this song's lyrics about or for Jesse. because this song - again - is supposeed to be on The Vampire Lestat's first album and thus written long before Lestat even knew jesse exsisted.

    And when it comes to if there's anything in the meaning for Akasha - I can't see it that way. These lyrics are so full of hate, bitterness and yet with touch of sincere love that it's about impossible to have anything to do with someone Lestat doesn't even know or hasn't really even met.

    This song has so personal and emotion-filled sound that I really, as I said, can not see the meaning to be about anyone but Marius - his teacher, friend and father who abandoned him and never reacted to the countless times he called out for him ever after.

    Oh, and the "touching you makes me die inside", I figured doesn't have to be physical dying after all. Can't believe I didn't think of it when I wrote that earlier opinion of mine. Of course it probably means that as touching Marius (hence, drinking his blood) made him into a campire, and he then learnt he should never again sociallize with mortals or do much anything he enjoyed before he beame a vampire... thus touching Marius made him die inside. His spirit was tied to the vampire sociaties rules. Or rather tried to be tied... ;D

    But as I said, for my opinion this song is simply and completely from Lestat to Marius. As Jesse became after this song was written and Akasha is too much a stranger for the personal, strong tone of the song and well... Louis? Claudia? I don't think he'd ever say he hates Louis and Claudia's dead and living without her most likely would not tear him apart. :D His journal was all about Marius, he's been calling for Marius many times, he noticed Jesse first time because she mentioned Marius's name, he wanted to know if she knew Marius. Did the first song in his concert just *happen* to be this Slept So Long, after he had Marius back in his life? I don't think so - I see the starting song very much deliberate. To say "I'm bitter and I hate you, you just think about that when you see me torn apart by those vampires" - but Marius surprised him and came to protect him. Most likely partly because of that provoke with the song.

    Marius, marius, Maaa-rii-uus I think was so very clearly one of the very deepest and top thoughts in his mind during the time of the movie's events.
    Flag bendaimmortalon November 20, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:Oh, and I forgot to mention - there just can't be anything in this song's lyrics about or for Jesse. because this song - again - is supposeed to be on The Vampire Lestat's first album and thus written long before Lestat even knew jesse exsisted.

    And when it comes to if there's anything in the meaning for Akasha - I can't see it that way. These lyrics are so full of hate, bitterness and yet with touch of sincere love that it's about impossible to have anything to do with someone Lestat doesn't even know or hasn't really even met.

    This song has so personal and emotion-filled sound that I really, as I said, can not see the meaning to be about anyone but Marius - his teacher, friend and father who abandoned him and never reacted to the countless times he called out for him ever after.

    Oh, and the "touching you makes me die inside", I figured doesn't have to be physical dying after all. Can't believe I didn't think of it when I wrote that earlier opinion of mine. Of course it probably means that as touching Marius (hence, drinking his blood) made him into a campire, and he then learnt he should never again sociallize with mortals or do much anything he enjoyed before he beame a vampire... thus touching Marius made him die inside. His spirit was tied to the vampire sociaties rules. Or rather tried to be tied... ;D

    But as I said, for my opinion this song is simply and completely from Lestat to Marius. As Jesse became after this song was written and Akasha is too much a stranger for the personal, strong tone of the song and well... Louis? Claudia? I don't think he'd ever say he hates Louis and Claudia's dead and living without her most likely would not tear him apart. :D His journal was all about Marius, he's been calling for Marius many times, he noticed Jesse first time because she mentioned Marius's name, he wanted to know if she knew Marius. Did the first song in his concert just *happen* to be this Slept So Long, after he had Marius back in his life? I don't think so - I see the starting song very much deliberate. To say "I'm bitter and I hate you, you just think about that when you see me torn apart by those vampires" - but Marius surprised him and came to protect him. Most likely partly because of that provoke with the song.

    Marius, marius, Maaa-rii-uus I think was so very clearly one of the very deepest and top thoughts in his mind during the time of the movie's events.
    Flag bendaimmortalon November 20, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:I've never taken the meaning much in any other way than from Lestat to Marius in the movie vision that is. Marius did not give him the choice in the first place but took his life without a question and thus fucked it up, and again when he abandoned him at such a young vampire age.

    Though Lestat loves a vampires life but hates some things in it too and would in the end rather be a mortal.

    When it comes to that 'touching you makes me feel alive. Touching you makes me die inside.' I'd take it that drinking his blood did push away the dying and gave him life, yet as always, it made him die inside (his body died), so I take that dying inside rather practically. :D

    And he probably didn't understand why Marius left him, how did they get that far and couldn't just be what they used to be, and then the man suddenly appears again after 200 years and tries to act like nothing had happened and the loneliness he had left Lestat into did tear him apart.

    And in the end though Lestat could kill easily, he couldn't kill Marius (not even IF he had any chances being physically and skillfully far from from an equal to Marius) - because even through his hate, he loves him. I think this song oozes his bitterness towards his maker, his teacher, his 'father', and in some level it urns into hate but in the end it's love under it all.

    Really, Lestat wrote this song BEFORE Marius suddenly returned.

    I've actually made a fan video with this vision to this song. There's a shortish intro clips there before the song starts:
    youtube.com/…
    Flag bendaimmortalon July 11, 2008   Link

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