Lyrics for I Didn't Understand as interpreted by EnjOy IncUbus

I Didn't Understand Lyrics
Thought you'd be looking
For the next in line to love then ignore
Put out and put away
And so you'd soon be leaving me alone
Like I'm supposed to be
Tonight, tomorrow, and every day

There's nothing here that you'll miss
I can guarantee you this
Is a cloud of smoke
Trying to occupy space
What a fucking joke
What a fucking joke

I waited for a bus to separate the both of us
And take me off far away from you
Because my feelings never change a bit
I always feel like shit
I don't know why, I guess that I "just do"

You once talked to me about love
And you painted pictures of a Never-Never Land
And I could've gone to that place
But I didn't understand

I didn't understand
I didn't understand

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sha sha
04-11-2004

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I think this is about a love that somehow ended and he is regretting it and trying to pick apart all the things that he did wrong and how he could have changed it or understood it during the relationship.
"you once talked to me about love and you painted pictures of
a never-neverland and i could've gone to that place
but i didn't understand "

he feels resentment towards her, thinking that she will just move on and find someone elses heart to break.

" waited for a bus to separate the both of us and take me off far away
from you 'cos my feelings never change a bit i always feel like shit".... i think this is about how he wants to forget about her and get away from all the pain she caused him but the pain never leaves.

mos def one of my fave elliot songs

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dorareever
04-16-2004

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this song is one of the saddest songs I have ever listened to.
heartbreaking and breathtaking.

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Arienette
04-19-2004

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what this song means to me is..it seems like its about someone being so depressed that they couldn't find happiness anywhere, not even in his girlfriend. This line especially

"you once talked to me about love and you painted pictures of
a never-neverland and i could've gone to that place
but i didn't understand "

almost like the other person tried to show him how to be happy and how to cope, and tried to brighten him up in any way possible but nothing was working because at the time he obviously didn't understand happiness. and then to me it seems like he goes into the feelings of knowing the person is better off without you because he knows his feelings will never change. I see that in this line.

" waited for a bus to separate the both of us and take me off far away
from you 'cos my feelings never change a bit i always feel like shit i
don't know why i guess that i "just do" "

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rockisgroovy
06-16-2004

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this is my favorite elliott smith song.

i love the voices create a melancholy emotion in the whole piece.

this song is about being rejected and confused.

"thought you'd be looking for the next in line to love then ignore
put out and put away
and so you'd soon be leaving me along like i'm supposed to be tonight, "

means how this person has done this to him, and is now moving on. there are some hostile feelings.

"there's nothing here that you'll miss"

is saying how, he is just agreeing, like saying, "yeah youre better off" even though he is hurt.

this- "you once talked to me about love and you painted pictures of
a never-neverland and i could've gone to that place
but i didn't understand"

is saying how, he must have cared more, and loved this person but now that the relationship is over with, must have not understood the relationship and he is at fault.

this song is about confusion and how the person agrees with his love and then is hostile.

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zenmasterfu
11-16-2004

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This is a song about the inevitability of breaking up, when one has such feelings of worthlessness.

He feels worthless, inferior. And even if the relationship has lasted a long time, and there have been happy moments (which are seen only as a cover - clouds of smoke), he feels in himself that there is no reason for her to love him. That he will always be alone. He is unloved, unlovable.

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RomanCandle
12-16-2004

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If i could probably name one song that hits every single emotional cord in my body it would be this one. The song sounds so cold and lacking soul, yet its so powerful. I remember seeing Elliott live about 3 years ago and he performed this song on piano and the entire crowd was just standing there holding back tears.

basically like everyone before me said, its just about not understanding, and sometimes wanting to understand or not wanting to understand whats going on around you. Basically you put up this wall that keeps this gap inbetween you and the world and no matter what kind of happiness or feelings you come across you can't feel them, you simply can't understand, thus leaving the person emotionless and unable to connect wtih anyone. Always having this unbearable pessimism towards everything that makes those who you know you love drift away from you, no matter how much they show they love or care for you, you still continue to widen the gap making it impossible to love you back.

just my thoughts.

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blackout2oo7
01-02-2005

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I once read most of Either/Or by Søren Kierkegaard. The first chapter, before the Diapsalmata, there is a quote originally in french I've done my best to translate here:
"Granduer, knowledge, fame,
Friendship, pleasure and wellness,
All is only wind, that smokes:
For better saying, all is nothing."

This seems appropriate here, Smith seeming to be a Kierkegaard fan in his lyrics.
"i can guarantee you this is a cloud of smoke
trying to occupy space
what a fucking joke"
Would be to say metaphorically, smoke rises to slowly disappear in the air, what he must have shared with this person (maybe himself) he realizes it's just another useless mask. The things that seem like they matter at the time are just smoke, all is only wind that smokes. And in the end, realizing this would make one feel like nothing. Almost trying to convince (in despair?) that it was all a joke in the first place.

"...and so you'd soon be leaving me alone, like I'm supposed to be tonight, tomorrow, and every-day."
Once again, mentioning that he is nothing anyway. And since he's nothing he'd rather they go. Like he knew from the beginning he knew it was all going to happen, but he didn't want to believe that love was just a painting and a fairy-tale.

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Winterstale333
02-09-2005

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so beautiful.
I think it's about a relationship where he just wasn't happy, even though the girl was amazing. He just didn't realize it was love at the time. Now he regrets it.
The reason I think this is because of the "you once talked to me about love and you painted pictures of a never-neverland and I could have gone to that place but I didn't understand"
again, so precious.

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mattyb17
03-06-2005

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You know what it's like when your significant other has something in their imagination and it doesn't match your pictures until it's too late and now you regret it... thats what i get from this song

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moochersminion
03-17-2005

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I pretty much agree with most of you that it's about someone who isolates themselves so much from everyone because they feel unlovable that they become what they've always seen in themselves: someone that no one can ever love. As much as they want to be happy and connect with people, they can't get over the feeling of inferiority.

it's a lot like Laura in the Glass Menagerie, if anyone's read that.

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Geordie C
03-28-2005

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This is a song of sheer beauty,Elliot Smith was a genius.

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some folk musician
04-02-2005

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One of the most beautiful songs ever.

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badge
05-25-2005

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the 2nd line surely goes:
"and so you'd soon be leaving me, ALONE like I'm supposed to be tonight, tomorrow and everyday"
this makes alot more sense and it is what he says, I think
also, "i always feel like shit i dont know why, i guess that i just do"....i dont see any reason to have quotation marks around the "just do" part because it doesn't seem like a quote to me. he is saying that he always feels like crap regardless and he can't explain why but if there are quotation marks here the meaning is distorted and it doesn't work as well in my opinion.
any, i love this song and i agree with what most of you guys say about it. so simple and beautiful.........RIP

Edited by YtseJam on May 25 2005, at 07:06AM



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badge
05-25-2005

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sorry, spelt surely wrong there, it is not spelt "surley"! i am an idiot

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melanch0ly
07-06-2005

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Wow, just wow. This song is so beautiful. Elliott must have had a real gift, to be able to write a song like this that expresses completely raw emotion. Its like so complex yet there is so much simplicity. The harmonies in his voice and the music just puts this song over the top.
Elliott was an amazing songwriter and he will always be so missed.

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delial
08-07-2005

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i have no cleverly new interpretation for this song. everything Arienette said sums up how i view this song, as well... all i wanted to say is it hit me pretty hard when i listened to xo yesterday after going so long without having listened to it.

"there's nothing here that you'll miss
I can guarantee you
this is a cloud of smoke
trying to occupy space
what a fucking joke,"

when I hit a low point, and by low, i mean as down with the ground as possible, I find myself feeling this way... dissipating into the air. so yeah it's a good time for me to rediscover this song. heh

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joshnetsky
08-08-2005

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i can't even listen to the lyrics to this song because the how beautiful his voice sounds. it doesn't need lyrics. you can understand completely just by listening to the tone. saddest song i've ever heard.

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Hey Im BRi
08-12-2005

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theres a totallly different alternate lyrics to this song

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rip_elliott_emith
10-10-2005

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dude i'm so wasted right now.... i just listened to this song and had a major flashback, g. whoa oh dude this is friggin tight! sorry i'd better be quiet now

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klh128
10-10-2005

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i havent really heard it before but the lyrics are really good they remind me of stuff!

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hairydonut
01-01-2006

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The first time I played this song, I sat alone with the CD booklet, reading the lyrics as I listened, at the end of the song I was crying.
Now that has never happened before. The last couple of lines, what a sentiment, especially when you think how it all ended for Elliott.

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ikefox
01-20-2006

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BRi, I think you're talking about the early lyrics that you can hear on the B-side where Elliott just plays piano ans sings solo.I posted them here on SongMeanings......

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facedownowls
01-27-2006

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I agree with pretty much everybody, and I'm glad this site is working again, because it didn't work where I am for a while.
This song is one of my absolute favourites. I can only listen to it when I'm alone and there is no chance of an interruption. I play in a band, and I remember specifically listening to this song once when I got home from a cross-country tour, during which Elliott died. I was driving home a day after getting back and I just parked on the backroads near where I live, watched the snow come down and listened to this song about 5 times in a row. The line "I waited for a bus..." really reminded me of leaving for a tour and leaving someone behind. It hit home then, whether that's what he actually meant or not.
Anyways, I remember sitting there and listening to that song and really wishing that my favourite musician wasn't dead.

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sammm
03-10-2006

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I think this song is a reply to evrebody understands. Like the fealing you get when people try to understand when youre fealing shit. But it leaves you more confused than ever. Proberbly it's about a close friend. doesn't have to be a lover. It's quite destructive but realy true and beautiful.

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joe2000
05-31-2006

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elliot smith's best song

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