So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
When I was younger I thought I could stand on my own
It wasn't easy, I stood like a man made of stone
But there was something about you (I want you to know)
It brought a change over me (it's starting to show)
I've got this feeling inside
Got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
When you believe in a man like me
When I get angry I say things I don't want to say
I really mean it, I don't want to leave you this way
I couldn't help my reaction (I want you to know)
I lose control over you (I just want you to know)
I've got this feeling inside
I got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
When you believe in a man like me
But there was something about you (I want you to know)
It brought a change over me (it's starting to show)
I've got this feeling inside
Got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
To believe in a man like me, like me
Can't you see
I've gotta, gotta have you
But there was something about you
Yeah, there was something about you
Ooh, ooh
When I was younger I thought I could stand on my own
It wasn't easy, I stood like a man made of stone
But there was something about you (I want you to know)
It brought a change over me (it's starting to show)
I've got this feeling inside
Got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
When you believe in a man like me
When I get angry I say things I don't want to say
I really mean it, I don't want to leave you this way
I couldn't help my reaction (I want you to know)
I lose control over you (I just want you to know)
I've got this feeling inside
I got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
When you believe in a man like me
But there was something about you (I want you to know)
It brought a change over me (it's starting to show)
I've got this feeling inside
Got to have you, have you
Ain't no good to hide
It isn't easy to show
What I'm feeling inside, girl
It isn't easy, I know
To believe in a man like me, like me
Can't you see
I've gotta, gotta have you
But there was something about you
Yeah, there was something about you
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Can't beat the ghostly sorrowful moaning of the beginning - right before that guitar energy comes rushing in full force.
This is one of my favorite rock tunes.
the intro is ineffable , it takes me to a completely different world . I just keep listening to that again and again !