I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand,
Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man?
These sensations barely interest me for another day,
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away.

It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand,
On the tenth floor, down the back stairs, it's a no man's land,
Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now,
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow.

What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again,
I'm watching you, I'm watching her, I'll take no pity from you friends,
Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now,
Until the spirit new sensation takes hold, then you know,
Until the spirit new sensation takes hold, then you know,
Until the spirit new sensation takes hold, then you know,
I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling,
I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling,
Feeling, feeling, feeling, feeling, feeling, feeling, feeling.



Lyrics submitted by cprompt, edited by smuckersje

Track duration: 03:30

"Disorder" as written by Ian Kevin Curtis, Peter Hook, Stephen Paul David Morris, Bernard Sumner

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

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    General Comment:I think it's simply about depression. There's parts of the song where there's a lot of activity, it's all a blur, and not joyous activity but a confusing, unfulling, and contributing to a sense of purposelessness. I love the image of a "guide" showing someone who feels depressed and disconnected coming - a guardian angel but at the same time just someone - and showing them how to experience simple pleasures.

    The part about "I'm watching you, I'm watching her, I take no pity from your friends" remind me of someone sitting awkwardly with a group of people at a bar, watching people but not interacting... not taking pity from the others who recognize how alone the person is feeling.

    Just my interpretation...
    Flag zepkid5678on February 03, 2013   Link
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    General Comment:By all accounts, Ian didn't have epilepsy when he wrote the songs on "Unknown Pleasures". As the story goes, or as told by those who knew him, he had his first fit sometime after the album came out, and while they were writing "Closer" (The onset was evidently quite acute and quite severe.) Ironically, "She's Lost Control" was written after Ian watched a girl have a seizure in a shop, and for some reason, it effected him, but he didn't know why, or not yet. You can read about this in the book by his wife "Touching From a Distance" and his band mates talk about it in detail in a BBC documentary called (I think) "Joy Division: The Documentary". Don't know what the song is about, though. Whatever you want it to be, I guess...
    Flagged jefepapichuloon June 02, 2012   Link
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    My Interpretation:I'm fixated on this song's imagery more than it's inner workings . It seems that as we travel to certain places are mood changes ,how if you grow up from an upper working class town to a poverty sticken wasteland , you begin to sink into utter despair . I think what this song convey's is that very idea of wanting somebody to help them in need of a greater life , but modern culture is changing so fast , things are becoming grim and incoherent in the narrtive to this song , he's lost the feeling but clings to vague hope as guidance , but in the end all he has is feeling , and modern culture has managed to have squashed all of that away .
    Flag Madatheearth88on March 04, 2012   Link
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    My Interpretation:The beginning of this song makes me think of suicide, self-harm, and depression.

    "I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand" - Waiting for someone that cares about you

    "Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man?" - Would having fun make me feel okay?

    "New sensations barely interest me for another day" - Usual things are not fun

    "I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away" - I feel like killing myself, but I've lost the feeling of it, self-harm

    "It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand" - I'm getting closer to going through with this

    And I am not sure about the middle and ending.
    Flag couchcaton August 31, 2011   Link
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    My Interpretation:I feel that this song is about his epilepsy, but the reason why the song could be read in many different ways and associated with is because the whole song conveys the lack of control perfectly. The drumbeat is almost like a frantic heartbeat, and as the song progresses the panic in the music and his voice grow until they cannot be contained. This is by far my favourite Joy Division song after many, many years listening to them, because the emotion of song is very familiar to my own heart.
    Flagged DizzyKitsuneon August 08, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:I’d say I’d disagree with the idea that this song is about Ian’s epilepsy. I think it’s about a general feeling of loss of identity, meaning, and belonging in this fast, shiny modern world. Sorry if that sounds pretentious. I guess I’ll try to analyze this line-by-line to back up my opinion.

    “I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand
    Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man?
    New sensations barely interest me for another day
    I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away”

    Ian wants to feel happy in this world, but feels he can’t do it himself (Waiting for a guide).
    He tries to do “normal” things to try empathize with what he considers “normal”people (pleasures of a normal man),
    But this doesn’t work (barely interested).
    Instead he’s dismayed (spirit), but he doesn’t want to be (feeling, shock).

    “It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand
    On the tenth floor, down the back stairs, it's a no man's land
    Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now
    I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow”

    The first three lines comment on the increasing speed and dehumanization of modern life.
    The fourth, he tries to bargain with his dismay. He knows he can’t take it away, so he’s trying to find a constructive outlet (let it out somehow).

    “What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again
    I'm watching you, I'm watching her - I take no pity from your friends
    Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now?
    Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold - then you know --
    [or on all the official live versions:
    I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow --]

    I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling, feeling, feeling –“

    This stanza I’m not so sure of. I think it’s about his increasing detachment, and observing it in others. Lastly, Ian mentions his own dismay at modern life, and his dismay at this being the only thing he feels.

    Sorry if this sounds really stupid, but this is what it seems to be about to me at least.
    Have a nice day.
    Flag punksbeathippieson July 10, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:i like to make songs my own so here's what i think it means. it's probably not right but this is just how i like to hear it.

    I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand - i've been waiting for the right time to commit suicide.
    Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man? - Could cutting/taking drugs make me feel normal
    New sensations barely interest me for another day - experiencing new things doesn't make me happy anymore.
    I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away - i want to lose all feeling and die (basically)

    It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand - cutting/taking drugs is getting out of hand
    On the tenth floor, down the back stairs, it's a no man's land - that's where he goes to cut/take drugs
    Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now - his mind is chaotic from cutting/the drugs (most likely drugs but cutting would apply to me.)
    I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow - I want to die somehow.

    What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again - Sorry if i upset you but we'll meet again someday.
    I'm watching you, I'm watching her I take no pity from your friends - Only few people loved me and i only loved few ? possibly?
    Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now? - who's right about why i commited and who cares.
    Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold then you know - experience of an overdose maybe?

    These are just my interpretations . i'm not saying that's what they mean.
    Flag makeitmyownon June 25, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:I don't know if it's because Im going through this phase, but the third verse sounds like a broken up relationship. "What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again". I think they're separating, and he's asking if they're going to be at least friends, and watch again some other time.
    "I'm watching you, I'm watching her - I take no pity from your friends". The lover got another person, and the friends of the lover don't even care about what the narrator feels.
    "Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now?". Like the old questions, like what they could have changed, who was right and wrong, why the broke up, it doesn't worth anymore, as there is no relationship anymore.

    That's what I saw it, though, but I think that my problems got somehow into the lyrics. But still, a great JD song, my history teacher was totally right, they didn't made a bad song, ever.
    Flag xwexarexbulletsxon July 29, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:Firstly I love this song more than any other by Joy Division and at times I think it may be the best record ever made. (There are about 20 songs that sometimes hold that place in my mind....depends.)

    This business a few comments back or a few months back about Ian being a homo is ridiculous. It's GUIDE not GUY and despite how much gay men would like him to be like them he wasn't. Not in that sense anyway, he was married young and had an affair and died young. None of his mates ever thought that of him. He was normosexual, get over it.

    As for this debate about was it about his epilepsy, that's a non starter too. Ian was epileptic and it was getting worse so he was both epileptic and suiciadally depressed. Everything he wrote had these feelings built into them because that is who he was and he wrote from his heart but I don't think he wrote this song as an OK I'll do an epilepsy song next on the recoed.It was just part of him. You could have no more easily amputated his legs than taken that from his personality.

    I get goosepimples listening to it, I feel as if I'm in a night time world of a city i love but have never quite reached.

    I want Disorder played at my funeral.
    Flagged seeyouontheheapon July 03, 2010   Link
  • 0
    My Interpretation:This is my favorite Joy Division song. Reminds me of a mood disorder. You feel like you have all these thoughts and feelings that you can't control and you just want to be normal. I don't know what was going through his mind when he wrote it but that's what it means to me.
    Flag avitalthealienon June 18, 2010   Link

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