So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Don’t give me names
You’ve got it all, took it all from me
Drove me insane
Who’d come down to earth, releasing me
Healing my wounds
so why don’t you close the door when you’re leaving me
now you’ll run
running all the way back to me again
I’m not to end in shame
to fight an endless lie
I’m not to play a game
I won’t be on your side
(I) found a way
to reach myself again but all I saw was shame
Drive me away
there’s something deep in me waiting to escape
you think you know me
so why don’t you close the door when you’re here with me
I’m here to end the game
I’m living in a lie
it’s hard to give the same
I won’t be on your side
I’m not to end in shame
to fight an endless lie
I’m not to play a game
I won’t be on your side
I loved you a lot
to need you a lot
I leave you alone...
You’ve got it all, took it all from me
Drove me insane
Who’d come down to earth, releasing me
Healing my wounds
so why don’t you close the door when you’re leaving me
now you’ll run
running all the way back to me again
I’m not to end in shame
to fight an endless lie
I’m not to play a game
I won’t be on your side
(I) found a way
to reach myself again but all I saw was shame
Drive me away
there’s something deep in me waiting to escape
you think you know me
so why don’t you close the door when you’re here with me
I’m here to end the game
I’m living in a lie
it’s hard to give the same
I won’t be on your side
I’m not to end in shame
to fight an endless lie
I’m not to play a game
I won’t be on your side
I loved you a lot
to need you a lot
I leave you alone...
Lyrics submitted by drhx
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I'm surprised no one has commented on this song yet!
I think is my fabourite by Guano Apes
i think this song is about her boyfriend cheating on her, so that's why she says she's living a lie and she still loving him so much and needing him so much but she can't keep living in that lie so she has to leave him and move on
mybe i'm so far away from what Sandra is traying to say with this song but that's my interpretation