I have a lover
A lover like no other
She got soul, soul, soul, sweet soul
And she teach me how to sing

Shows me colors when there's none to see
Gives me hope when I can't believe
That for the first time
I feel love

I have a brother
When I'm a brother in need
I spend my whole time running
He spends his running after me

When I feel myself going down
I just call and he comes around
But for the first time
I feel love

My father is a rich man
He wears a rich man's cloak
Gave me the keys to his kingdom coming
Gave me a cup of gold

He said I have many mansions
And there are many rooms to see
But I left by the back door
And I threw away the key
And I threw away the key
Yeah, I threw away the key
Yeah, I threw away the key

For the first time
For the first time
For the first time

I feel love



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Track duration: 03:45

"The First Time" as written by Jon ; Hassell Brian Peter George Eno

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    General Comment:This song is definitely about spirituality and healing, but the Biblical references are more symbolic of the person's beliefs and the three things he loves: his girlfriend, his brother and God (the father).

    Each of which show him aspects of his personality he never knew he had due to a troubled upbringing. With his girlfriend he finds romance, happiness and compassion. With his brother he finds friendship, companionship and devotion. And finally with God he finds faith, belief and hope.

    However he has a crisis of faith as he believes he is unworthy of God's love and unworthy of all the good things (referred to by the; 'I have many mansions, and there are many rooms to see') he (the person) has going for him; that is his brother and girlfriend.

    He throws it all away but the last four lines indicate a redemption of sorts, he's giving a second chance by his girlfriend, his brother and God thus explaining the last four lines. For it took him shunning everything he cared for to realise there are people who love for and care for him. Hence; 'for the first time... I feel love'.
    Flag LnXon November 23, 2012   Link
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    General Comment:I'm also for the Trinity idea. Lover - Holy Ghost (soul soul soul sweet soul and she can sing - like Ap. Paul says in his writings that he will pray and sing in Spirit), Brother - Jesus Christ, as Christ was the symbol of brotherhood and those who seek Him are running after Him and He is running after us as well so we find the truth. Father part is obvious. And the throwing away the key I think its about the original sin, cause Adam sinned and thus "threw away" the keys that he had to the Garden of Eden. Song says " I " cause in Adam we all sinned, noone is a saint, and we have to get back to what Adam had to feel the Love meant in the song :) Peace and Love
    Flag Armensogon September 23, 2012   Link
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    My Interpretation:I'm going along with the Holy Trinity idea, because that is just beautiful. However, I twist the ending a little bit. Take note that the way I interpreted it is not the way I think Bono intended but oh well! :)

    Well, in the end when he sings:

    My father is a rich man
    He wears a rich man's cloak
    Gave me the keys to his kingdom coming
    Gave me a cup of gold
    He said I have many mansions
    And there are many rooms to see
    But I left by the back door
    And I threw away the key...

    Everyone talks about it going like this (pay attention to the quotation marks):

    ...Gave me a cup of gold
    He said "I have many mansions
    And there are many rooms to see"
    But I left by the back door
    And I threw away the key...

    BUT when I listened to it I always imagined it going like this (again, pay attention to the quotation marks):

    ...Gave me a cup of gold
    He said "I have many mansions
    And there are many rooms to see
    But I left by the back door
    And I threw away the key..."

    With that demonstrating the fact that God has all the power over everything in Heaven and Earth but He leaves it behind because that means nothing to Him compared to having a relationship with us. The build-up in the music when he sings "And I threw away the key" puts you in an awestruck state filled with the feeling of a beautiful and unconditional love. God has many mansions and many rooms to see in Heaven but He left Heaven, and sent His son (Jesus) so that we could come into His presence any time here on Earth and then have eternal life with Him in Heaven.

    Again, this may not be how Bono intended. I, however, will continue listening to it this way because this puts a positive twist to the seemingly negative-ish ending to this song. This song is so beautiful and I enjoy it leaving a good taste in my mouth. :)
    Flag SarahBeth45on October 03, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:Eh, I think you're all wrong :D

    It seems to me the first part of the song is about drugs, doesn't matter if Bono does them or not.. As has been mentioned he sometimes speaks in the first person from other perspectives.
    --
    Shows me colours when there's none to see
    --
    Drugs? yes..
    --
    I have a brother
    When I'm a brother in need
    --
    A brother could be a dealer..friend..brother in need? needing drugs? yea..
    --
    I spend my whole life running
    He spends his running after me
    --
    Even when he's running away..trying to ditch..the drugs/dealer are running after him...
    --
    When I feel myself going down
    --
    coming down off them.
    --
    I just call and he comes around
    --
    Dealer is there spot on...
    --
    But so is Dad... Trying to save him..
    He could have taken it all..
    But he threw away the key..
    Dad is giving him everything he can..
    And for the first time he feels loved.
    Flag iamvap1don January 14, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:I'm not so sure, utwogirl. It would seem that in the mid 90s around Zooropa and Pop, Bono began to lose his faith a little. At the very least, his faith was shaken somewhat. In many songs he asked such questions as "is God really listening?", "does He really care?". Nothing wrong with that. Many of David's psalms questioned God and his motives and actions. I think God welcomes those kind of questions.

    Bono nearly always writes in the first person, but not always AS Bono. Quite often he uses other characters to express things that he may be thinking or to work through questions or issues that he has. I think this is one of those songs. I remember reading once in an interview that the song originally had a different, and more faith affirming, ending, but Bono changed it as that wasn't the kind of thing he was exploring at that time.
    Flag TomServo11on November 05, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:I think Leonni is exactly right. I would add that the part about leaving the Mansion and throwing away the key may be a metaphor for original sin, or perhaps the singer's own sins. The feeling of being loved for the first time may be an acknowledgemnt of the only perfect love that is possible, which is the love of Jesus, who forgives our sins. All other love is tainted by man's sinful nature, e.g. we love based on what we get in return. Jesus' love is perfect because it is given freely.
    Flag rogon October 15, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:I disagree with boboon....there is no way that Bono would write a song that says he felt love...after throwing God away. No way...no how! Its definitley a song about the fact that Jesus and God are with you no matter what. You can throw it all away, but they are always with you and will never leave you. It's kind of an admittance to that....that the man singing, knows how much he's ignored God, but knows he's still there. Even though, he'll probably "throw away the key" over and over.
    Flag utwogirlon September 14, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:According to songfacts.com, "Bono: 'About losing your faith.'"


    In the last verse, God gives him the keys to the kingdom, but the narrator chooses to slip away and forsake all that was bequeathed to him. The last lines, however, still say, "For the first time, I feel love."


    In the second verse, despite saying, "When I feel myself going down, I just call and he comes around," Bono ends it with, "!!BUT!! for the first time, I feel love." That "but" shows how regardless of the kindness shown him in the past, for the first time he feels love. The question is whether this is *because* he has become gratefully aware of that love or *in spite* of it.


    This song is wide open to interpretation, though I'd love to know what Bono's intent was. The holy trinity ideas were interesting. Another idea I might throw out is that, having forsaken God, the events in the first and second verses occur AFTER the third verse, when his friends (i.e. lover/brother) are showing him that, even having thrown away the keys to the kingdom, there is still love and beauty in life.


    As for me, an atheist, I can't tell you how in love I felt with life when I threw God away. For someone who breaks away from faith or believing in something, it doesn't happen in an instant, the cracks form and deepen across the years, and when you finally let go it becomes an affirmation of life, of yourself. Like he says, for the first time I felt love.
    Flag boboonon April 07, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:This song is most definately religious. bono is religious, it is a theme that is repeated in his music. he feels love for the first time because even though he is human and rejects the lord's gifts, the Lord still embraces him as His child. what is more unconditional than that? Bono has simply found jesus....more or less....
    Flag AgeeRockson January 02, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:This song is most definately religious. bono is religious, it is a theme that is repeated in his music. he feels love for the first time because even though he is human and rejects the lord's gifts, the Lord still embraces him as His child. what is more unconditional than that? Bono has simply found jesus....more or less....
    Flag AgeeRockson January 02, 2009   Link

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