Is it really necessary to post suicide stories on a friggin lyric site?

this song is about bleeding and what happens when you slit your wrists. the line "whose blood do i bleed" rings super-duper true with me as i often ask myself this question. whenever im cleaning up my dogs blood after we slits our wrists in sync with this song a tear comes to my eye and i write a shitty poem with it and call it vnv nation's greatest hits. ironically i'm HIV positive. this song helped me through a rough time when i ran out of places to slit my wrists as they looked like a well-tilled field. then this song helped me remember i could slit my toes. i love this band.

this song is about bleeding and what happens when you slit your wrists. the line "whose blood do i bleed" rings super-duper true with me as i often ask myself this question. whenever im cleaning up my dogs blood after we slits our wrists in sync with this song a tear comes to my eye and i write a shitty poem with it and call it vnv nation's greatest hits. ironically i'm HIV positive. this song helped me through a rough time when i ran out of places to slit my wrists as they looked like a well-tilled field. then this song helped me remember i could slit my toes. i love this band.

This song has profound meaning for me, especially after losing my younger brother to tragedy a year and a half ago. I had a chance to sit with Ronan several months ago when he DJ'd in DC last and talk about this song.

Its a song of hope, of mourning, of coping with grief and trying to convey that which people who have never been through such lose could understand.

Its not about suicide, or despair, or depression, its about grief and coping and going on with your life even through something important has been torn out from it. Its about those words and things you'll never share with that person.

Its feeling that pain fully, accepting it as real and accepting the reality and the futility of it, and moving on.

I was glad to have the chance to thank Ronan for this song, it helped me cope with that loss, it made me realize that I wasn't the only person who felt that hopeless emptiness, the loss of self and void that comes with such a tragedy. And it let me know that I could move on.

Because I could find myself again, through it all.

I've owned this song for quite some time. For most of that time, I had only heard the original, instrumental version. My feelings about the song were formed from that, rather than the version with lyrics.

Listening to the instrumental version, I've always had the image of a flawed, or even "bad" person as they pass and meet that which awaits them. Imagine someone who has, in life, alienated everyone or who has even wronged many others, all the while maintaining an attitude of superiority, callousness, indifference, or even aggression & spite, and who is beginning to worry about the idea that they may not share in the bounty which awaits the good. The old man lies in a cold, sanitized room at the end of a lonely hallway in some neglected area of a hospital, and with the final flits of his eyelids springs a tear. His transporting angel arrives, and his sobs transcend the physical as he wonders whether his private pain, that which has tortured him in life despite his misanthropic, antisocial veneer, will be sufficient to gain him passage. The loving angel plants a kiss on his heavy forehead, smiling in a mixture of awe and pity. The hospital recedes into the distance, and the departed is left to eternity. His questions of whether that eternity will be one of peace or turmoil are forgotten as the sheer breath of eternity becomes apparent, and his privacies become part of the trivial.

"For 40 years I have plotted to bring down the party; I was sick, in mind and body."
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"If your frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth."

VNV NATION "SONG MEANINGS" INSIDE
15 page interview with Ronan Harris.

http://dancemusic.about.com/od/artistshomepages/a/VnVNationInt.htm

I lost my best friend, well actually more like a brother, in april of this year and this song hits home, because he committed suicide and was an outcast. This song makes me cry when i hear it because it reminds me of all the stuff i could never say to him before he killed himself.

I think this is a beautiful song. Honestly, it helped me through my father's death to hear it and know someone else has felt exactly the way I did and made it through. I want to give Mark and Ronan hugs for playing music that can impact one's life so much. :)