Oxytocin

Crucify me
I long to perpetrate your suffering
That’s all I ever do
I wish to steal your oxytocin so you never trust
Feel something other than happiness
You live to serve me, be my self-destructive masochist

I am torn by the way the sand has drained
But you’re tilting the glass like it’s stained
But every second you took away
I never wanted you to be this way

Give me all my time back give me all you fucking took away
Every time you tell me, “you’re foolish, hang your head in shame”
As if I always try to push you away
Why don’t you let me be; let me fucking slip away

Perpetrate my suffering
That’s all you’ll ever do
I wish you’d steal my oxytocin, so I’m rid of you

Fall asleep ‘til she beckons me to fall through darkness
We fall apart, can you put the pieces back together?

I wish you’d steal my oxytocin so I’m rid of you
Bite the hand that feeds
(Oh, please; oh, please)
Beat the man that bleeds
And gaslight me
Just beat me down until I can’t fucking stand
As you take away everything that makes me a man

Fall asleep ‘til she beckons me to fall through darkness
We fall apart, can you put the pieces back together?
Beckon me, may I have the strength to fall from you
So we fall apart, can you put the pieces back together?

With the sun in your eyes, you can’t fucking see
Forever in denial, you can crucify me

Lying to the face of everyone you know
You’re grasping at the surface but they’re letting you go
So when we’re both in hell, and I’m down on my knees
You’ll still be in denial and you’ll crucify me